I hate my BOSS!

I hate my job,
mather fuck!
tulan lo really beh tahan ma cb!
nobody love their boss i guess,
this is normal..
lol. so seriously i hate my boss!

shit i don't find i got future if i stick with my this company,
work like shit man,
time is flexible but it does not seems to have a good career path at all
I had decided to stop this fking job,
should i?
should i stop it? i think to but i cant!

Don't be impulsiveness,
money is the issues
fuck it !
I really really really don't simply spent at all already,
why still i can't see the money came in?
wtf o0o

must be my salary issues, basic is low, it was good enough for me to eat only.
if i am going to have another better enjoyable lifestyle.
i can say i can go bankruptcy.
I work as sales person,
this is the 5th month and yet i don't even received commission from what i did also,
so what's the point i am continue to stay.

shit i can't understand those old folk manage to do this job,
7/24 work.
no rest day except PUBLIC holiday..
i can go die liao..
sometimes i feel that it does not worth for me to fight for.
T.T this is something sad about

once again,
i had enter into wrong job scope and company.
I had waste another time again
move on but where to go?
again have to stuck with this fucking question..
boring question..

The only things i should focus now is,
wondering and asking myself what should i do..
man this will drive myself crazy..
i think of the fact that i must work for the rest of my life already,
it was SO SAD and yet it has to accept..
shit i wan to be MILLIONAIRE! pls drop from the sky ~~

人生不停的战斗 ~

人生不停的战斗

Motivation to work is a good thing,

rich dad poor dad is my guide,

make me widen my mind,

gained knowledge too.

yesterday i saw 1 sentence by Robert T.Kiyosaki,

he say that,

When you were young?

Work to learn, not work to earn..

this trigger my mind!

a lot . i finally no longer wanna go back to my student life,

already adapt working life.

but so far i had made a mistake for more than a YEARS in my working life,

that is I am actually keep working just to earn,

got what opportunity, i grab, whatever side income, i wanted to have it!

till the end now only i realize,

i don't really learn anything from my work.

yea perhaps is time to stop and think it twice!

should i continue to do so many lum sum work,

or should i focus and learn?

i choose to learn rather than earn ~

after i learned, i will master, and when i mastered, automatically i earn more.

start from now, i wanna just focus on the job that i am having,

side income just forget about it..

i don't have time for that also.. but must not give up ! Never!

我好累哦

人生短短，该做些什么才算是有意义的？

为什么我要长大呢？

很难，真的很难，长大后最难面对的就是如何才能活得开心。

今天，我要面对这个残忍的现实。

想当年，读书就是我的责任

现在读完书了

工作了，生存就是我的责任

才发现读那么多年的书，好像没什么的

还不是一样？

责任感就是离不开。

我不能不负责任，因为我今天的所作所为一定影响我的明天。

是跑不掉的

但我只想说，

我好累哦。。。。。。。

i Wish i could ~

i wish i could,

i really wish i could,

i could forget anything that i wish i could,

demolish it from my mind.

i find out myself on 1 things,

that's really drive me crazy,

and it's unbelievable that,

i am gonna said this what was that thing that make me wish to forget?

Secondary Scouting life.

scout it was part of my life, it was 1 of the best thing i ever had,

1 of the best thing i ever ever had,

non of u can ever question how passion i am into it.

Love it while Hate it too,

if i have the option to choose again still i choose the same,

but i wish i could forget it.

because remembering it doesn't make me happy.

it's my fault, when i was young, i was too proud of myself,

too proud of being the strongest best scout in the year.

that's my arrogance who tear me apart.

i guess i get the lesson from it then.

it affect me i can't be friend with those friend who i wish to be,

my scout mate friends. i same age with them but i just couldn't be into it.

I look it back, i was happily with a gang of scout friend, the moment until age 15 only.

starting point at age 15, my scouting life, i was a lone ranger in scout. becuz of politics.

i see my friends around,

who were active just like me, involve in co curricular, are as much memory just like me

my friend in SMJKrian, my friend in PBSM, they all seems like really having precious moment,

but i did not.. hpw jealous i am to all of you.

2/2, Is a scout day, the history of scout begin on that day.

i saw my friends comment in facebook, all about wishing happy scout day.

they were tagging my friends around, wishing each other happy scouting day,

however, i wasn't get tag by them. this always remind me 1 things only

is my friendship with them will never get close anymore,

gap is always a gap that couldn't fill any hot juice to make it sweeter.

i lost my friendship with them, we do know each other, but best friend title gone,

that's why i once i see i hear about scout, it recall me this piece of shit.

now i know why i love scout, in the same time, i hope i am not a scout,

how nice if i still can get close with them? maybe i am not a scout, it won't be like this

in present, due to misunderstanding, i lost my friendship with my only best scout mate i had,

i was so sad, i was really sad, dunno how to describe how heartbreaking i am to see it.

today, this person no longer concern about me as before,

don't talk with me, don't reply my text, we were like totally stranger, wat can i do?

i was like nobody to this person, but this fella really meant alot to me.

if u see this, "I am sorry, please forgive me ~"

another piece of sadness happen to me again, here is the place for me to release.

thank you my blog.

Advice from you

what should i do now?

any advise?

wish this isn't me =)

Few days ago,

a friend of mine told me that,

Gary, I got the feelings that

you are pessimistic, dejected, sorrowful..

I was like "oh really? = ="

and I would agree that actually he's right about that

it's cool where someone read through me

and that's really not i wan but it was me.

Fuck shit I got things to say it right now,

should I? I should or not?

fuck yea can't talk to some1 this in reality,

I guess blog is the place where I can simply say whatever i wanted to!?

fuck why people can't accept nothing is perfect this fact !?

i am actually whacking myself as i am 1 of them,

so since nothing is perfect why still i have to work hard to change,

myself so that to fit into others people?

no choice, bad temper person is lonely,

there's no such things as bad temper people's group,

gay still got a group but bad temper people's group?

no don't have... that's why miserable..

I really mind why can't I fit into the group of people where i wanted to,

if i asked around, the feedback is still the same, i guess,

"if we all rejecting you, definitely is you got problem, wasn't us?

so what to do is you have to change yourself or else, only can say sorry to you"

i mind, i really mind, so i try hard myself try to change, but it's just a lie to myself

change lan meh? change wat? this is me la.. change into what? not me?

nah o0o, i have to understand, i must accept, i have to accept,

i am born like this then i am who am i.

talk so much, it's only a point,

i am sad to be bad temper, emotion, afraid people not aware of me,

scare of people does not include me as i am existing,

afraid people treat me like invisible objects.

so i do something stupid,

in order to gain people's attention?

and hope some1 will actually come to you and,

did something u are really expecting people do it for u? stoP dreaming!

i have to say. confession!

yea that's me, you can't accept, i mustn't try to change myself, so that,

i can fit into a group of people where u won't ignore me, will treat me as some1?

hmm not worthy not worthy.

the value is not there,

rather to be alone. dignity is a value where i must have it,

although i lost battle in the transformation into good of myself.

still. moving forward with a value i must hold on in order to make it meaningful,

to myself =)

My Career ~

My career path.

is going not so well,

not motivated to work,

man! this is bad to heard to!

i going to resign soon

ended my 9 months in the company

gosh,

things i really need to improve,

the way i speak,

the way i dress,

the way i learn,

the way i work..

the way i speak

speak confidently is a must,

perhaps i am too gentle. ends up with soft.

it prove that i am now

with a look of professional but lack of confident of speaking,

ends up i am nothing.

the way i dress

i already shop my own shirt,

ready to fit on my body,

i mustn't that gone easy anymore,

my shirt must always fit on my body.

luckily i am born to love on exercise,

it will make me stay fit and healthy.

the way i learn

no more!

no more on procrastinating!

it make me learn slow and yet became lazy.

i must stop it in order to become someone,

who is field with idea and knowledge.

the way i work,

hmm.. not efficient enough?

guess so..

well what's really important here,

i would be saying that. work hard more,

or else u will be end up like what i am going to face soon,

Resignation~