ｇＡｒｙ　Ｊｕｎ＊俊

Advice from you

2012-01-05T08:40:00.000-08:00

what should i do now?

any advise?

wish this isn't me =)

2012-01-03T07:47:00.001-08:00

Few days ago,

a friend of mine told me that,

Gary, I got the feelings that

you are pessimistic, dejected, sorrowful..

I was like "oh really? = ="

and I would agree that actually he's right about that

it's cool where someone read through me

and that's really not i wan but it was me.

Fuck shit I got things to say it right now,

should I? I should or not?

fuck yea can't talk to some1 this in reality,

I guess blog is the place where I can simply say whatever i wanted to!?

fuck why people can't accept nothing is perfect this fact !?

i am actually whacking myself as i am 1 of them,

so since nothing is perfect why still i have to work hard to change,

myself so that to fit into others people?

no choice, bad temper person is lonely,

there's no such things as bad temper people's group,

gay still got a group but bad temper people's group?

no don't have... that's why miserable..

I really mind why can't I fit into the group of people where i wanted to,

if i asked around, the feedback is still the same, i guess,

"if we all rejecting you, definitely is you got problem, wasn't us?

so what to do is you have to change yourself or else, only can say sorry to you"

i mind, i really mind, so i try hard myself try to change, but it's just a lie to myself

change lan meh? change wat? this is me la.. change into what? not me?

nah o0o, i have to understand, i must accept, i have to accept,

i am born like this then i am who am i.

talk so much, it's only a point,

i am sad to be bad temper, emotion, afraid people not aware of me,

scare of people does not include me as i am existing,

afraid people treat me like invisible objects.

so i do something stupid,

in order to gain people's attention?

and hope some1 will actually come to you and,

did something u are really expecting people do it for u? stoP dreaming!

i have to say. confession!

yea that's me, you can't accept, i mustn't try to change myself, so that,

i can fit into a group of people where u won't ignore me, will treat me as some1?

hmm not worthy not worthy.

the value is not there,

rather to be alone. dignity is a value where i must have it,

although i lost battle in the transformation into good of myself.

still. moving forward with a value i must hold on in order to make it meaningful,

to myself =)

My Career ~

2011-12-04T19:40:00.000-08:00

My career path.

is going not so well,

not motivated to work,

man! this is bad to heard to!

i going to resign soon

ended my 9 months in the company

gosh,

things i really need to improve,

the way i speak,

the way i dress,

the way i learn,

the way i work..

the way i speak

speak confidently is a must,

perhaps i am too gentle. ends up with soft.

it prove that i am now

with a look of professional but lack of confident of speaking,

ends up i am nothing.

the way i dress

i already shop my own shirt,

ready to fit on my body,

i mustn't that gone easy anymore,

my shirt must always fit on my body.

luckily i am born to love on exercise,

it will make me stay fit and healthy.

the way i learn

no more!

no more on procrastinating!

it make me learn slow and yet became lazy.

i must stop it in order to become someone,

who is field with idea and knowledge.

the way i work,

hmm.. not efficient enough?

guess so..

well what's really important here,

i would be saying that. work hard more,

or else u will be end up like what i am going to face soon,

Resignation~

Unleash me!

2011-09-12T09:57:00.000-07:00

13th September 2011 Cloudy 1AM

When i look back my old days photo,

when i sit down and recall back,

when i resting and think,

what would be the 1st thing actually comes out in my mind?

what is the most refreshing memories?

hmm.. nothing much fun,

Smile never came first.

all i recall back is Sadness, Hurt

Dear God,

am i not optimistic enough or

my life were meant to be pathetic?

why my grown up stage must fill with sad & sorrow?

i really think this big question mark seriously,

and i find out the truth,

my SADNESS is more than HAPPINESS,

that's why every time i recall back my mind,

sadness Come 1st.

i always make myself so fine,

so cool so happy. seriously,

really make myself pretending like i am happy.

but now i realize, really realizing that.

i had been living with sadness in my teenage life.

my teenage life is not happy. most of them are not. happy at all

and it affect my University Life as well. impact to my growing life.

so now i feel i am Pathetic.

why i feel so? ok i spread it out.

i wan to stop myself being pretending,

keep on telling myself think positively,

be happy. is ok i am just fine. this that.

optimistic..

bla bla bla.. which make me live like a fake king.

It only caused pain and misery.

One tiny things that make me F**K UP is friendship.

so starting now, i wanted to be realistic person.

because nobody cares.

who cares i got a very best friend or dont?

no1 no1. man it's nobody.

the caring part always

is only myself. so being optimistic is only make me suffer.

always thought that myself can be mix to the people i wanted to.

thought that i was 1 of them.

say it no more from now!

it was only make myself a joke only,

i am really a joker.

do accept the truth, i really force to accept this truth,

pain, but it's fact ~

friends around me,

do have their very best friends,

it's good, happy for them!

because they owning things i don't have.

and the best friendship mostly are bond during

teenage or childhood time. Agree?

and i just want to say that,

i don't have this kind of friends.

i wish to have 1, but i don't have.

and friends that i know. have their best friends,

and non of their best friends list, is me.

if u have this kind of friends, be proud =),

be happy.. u are really 1 of the lucky 1.

i see myself, just pathetic when look into friendship.

let's see myself clearly, confess myself.

must be i not good enough.

must be my social life not good.

must be. must be i not worth for any friendship.

i really try to build best friendship with some1,

but i didn't got that chance to do it greatly.

recently again, i drowned a friendship into the deep sea.

stupid me.

i have so less good friends and i am still losing it.

that's why it's really matter to me.

i did apologize, but no second chance, is ok i am fine with it.

since we don't understand each other well enough,

and i did my move that i was suppose to do,

and it didn't work out anymore. it's fine,

no matter how hurt it was, i still have to recover.

but is to lost a great great friendship that i take it matter in my life.

well, how nice if really some1 tell me,

"u are 1 of the friends that is best to have"

maybe i will happy to heard that,

but i know. i just know. it was only just a dreams =)

perhaps i am destiny to be lone ranger.

Families and Love Partners ONLY.

Friendship? haha..

so be it ~

now onward.

be realistic, if not beneficial for me to mix around,

then let it be. this is what we call changes,

changes to be a life of a business minded person,

only those people that u get benefit,

or those who getting advantages from you.

that u will be mixing around..

i am Pathetic? am i?

to me who love friendship before.

who friendship so matter to.

i would say.

yes, it is!

"Gary Yeik, this is you"

2011-09-05T17:43:00.000-07:00

I had returned.

the recover remedy.

few days calm.

peace of mind.

joy of life.

laugh for health.

be exercise maniac.

crazy over work.

maximize my time.

do my best.

forget the past.

remember the sweet.

chew the tasty.

and that's it.

write for fun.

only for fun.

9/02....

2011-09-02T07:37:00.000-07:00

9/02,

it's leng mui birthday.. so happy birthday.

blog blog blog,

u are a place to voice out,

nothing to hide,

honestly.

it feel relief sometimes,

why don't speak but write?

write is much more easier to speak out,

at least it does work to me.

Incident of the day

early wake up in the morning,

open my eyes hardly,

grab my phone gently,

brush my teeth neatly,

look into phone carefully,

and start dropping tears~ sober sober.

.......................................

yea really WTF,

crying for few minutes.

friendship matters,

it threaten my emotion so much,

perhaps this friendship really matter to me

once again i get conquer by friendship.

it was so sudden,

it's really break me apart.

although its not long only,

but it did break me apart.

it's painful!

so lastly,

i wanna say,

may the Pain is worth to feel today.

Negative Lesson

2011-09-01T08:37:00.000-07:00

when you see yourself into the mirror,

what will you see?

of course is your face.

but i am curious,

is that only thing u saw into the mirror?

i mean, yourself?

question begin,

did u ever see clearly into yourself?

yes or no?

i am facing a problem,

admit that i was not perfect at all,

but what if u really changed into a better person,

does people will change their thought on you?

nah..

i don't think so..

ur bad side, forever is there.

it cannot be demolish..

that's why I learn from there.

no matter how you hate them,

dislike them, f**king hate them..

u have to being someone who is good,

good good good..

never let a chance to burst ur bad.

or else. u will not have a chance to mix around,

or close enough to being one of them.

no chance. no chance at all.

gone means gone. no 2nd impression,

even u change so wat?

even u really turn into good already so wat?

no second good guy to show them.

u will no chance....

it's because of..............................................................

they may forgive u if u bad,

and u had changed.

but they will not FORGET..

NEVER FORGET !

MCB

2011-08-31T11:37:00.000-07:00

MCB..

not awake a you?

who do u think you are?

Please. just please stop dreaming can or not?

sohai ah you?

how many times u face this shit already?

why again and again u still haven't awake?

give yourself a hope?

i already told u not to care so much not to mind, why don't u listen?

i also lazy to talk to you anymore,

u are just an idiot. just move on la,

what for to work so hard in order u will get into their circle?

u are outside the boundaries..

so.. stop being dumbass..

Yes, i will, i will listen to you,

i will not wanted to join into that world which unable me to fit into,

i will walk alone. is alright to be alone.

search for the people who will treasure me,

no more wasting effort on the wrong people.

cheers.

On Leave

2011-08-26T09:46:00.000-07:00

oh ?

instead of saying it's holiday..

now turn up became on leave as the term already.. T.T.

working life isn't easy

hard ~ very tough!

so long i didn't upload picture into the blog,

i guess..

is time? haha..

i wan to snap something when i go back hometown this time,

oh yea..

i already got plan!

going mountain hiking, gunung semanggol,

just a small mountain..

lol.. however it was just a dream,

dreaming that i ever young back again

because this activity mainly created because of scouting life,

secondary school loL..

it's fun to have adventure to hike into the nature.

however,

it was a disappointment to me that,

the event was created because of those my friend,

they all.. AEROPLANE.

1 word. FUCK!

that's it...

good night GARY Yeik ~

DiSapPoinTed

2011-08-14T06:35:00.001-07:00

disappointed for malaysia badminton team,

lose in the final to china lin dan.

and yet i saw so many people in facebook posted their comment

did you know what i see?

i saw those Malaysia support Lin Dan.

it's seriously so hot to see !

"Kan ne..."

!@$@#%!@#%#@

i understand,

it's their rights.

their civil rights!

main point is chong wei lose,

a little bit more only.

so.. gambatea.

My current life?

2011-04-13T07:26:00.000-07:00

oh no..

a robotic life,

couldn't avoid at all...

lol..

wake up >>> go to work >>> back from work >>> sleep,

RECYCLE!

haha...

earning money isn't easy at all hur?

i was the slowest among the new comer,

i saw them so hardworking,

meanwhile i was doing nothing in the office,

but wasting some times?

haha...

some of them,

i knew, i can feel it,

there is some of them,

starting thinking in mind that,

due to i wasn't doing anything yet,

but just sitting there dreaming till today,

will be the one to go very soon..

LOL...

dunno whether is it true?

it is just my six sense,

however..

will ignite my day very soon,

because next 2 weeks is my job training,

i shall concentrate on it..

rather work half way right now like they are doing,

then force to stop for 2 week for training..

what for?

but they learned something more than i do..

that's what i am losing it right now =)

but i am not afraid..

WILL START WORK SERIOUSLY!

i will!

4/4/2011 = SEI SEI 2011

2011-04-04T05:43:00.000-07:00

what the F***!

it was my first day on duty!

but i was late!

wtf !?

nobody late for work at first day on duty...

WHY it was me...

why me?!

T.T

!@#$%^&

really can't rely on technology too much,

i have to rely on that stupid LRT,

what to do..

it stuck me at the station for at least an hour!

i was at the station waiting at 8a.m,

9a.m only it works..

cause me have to explain,

have to call someone to apologize,

seek for help so that,

i won't lose my job ~

HAHA.. i saw a lot TAR student also nervous,

maybe they had examination today? haha..

and i did observe those working ppl,

there is few ladies, their face were so scary,

i guess late to work was really a nightmare for all of us,

who work!

however, i was really calm,

just... IT WAS A BAD day la ~

oh i finally got it ~ ace

2011-03-30T20:47:00.000-07:00

30th March 2011

I got it.. it's my new phone..

SAMSUNG galaxy ace

wakkaka ~

Happy day..

Poor

2011-03-13T19:02:00.000-07:00

OMG, i went to interview on the 10th March..

i wasn't perform the best yet,

how am i going to get the job?

worry worry worry...

perhaps i had learned =)

"钱不是万能，但没有钱真的是万万不能"

pray the sky will drop a job to me! xD..

come on la..

i was just dreaming la,

optimistic cannot survive in this realistic issues la,

aduh..

i bought a book,

it's a good book,

wah i was surprise i can suddenly have reading habit,

how nice if this hobby always apply

at the right place in the right time?

i admit i was lazy person,

shit..

have to seek for motivation in order to solve the lazy issues

so 4 in love to the evil money would that lead me work hard?

curious on it

I WANT a new phone !

2011-03-06T09:13:00.001-08:00

*URGENT*

SHIT I WANT a new phone!

seriously need it...

i am now realize i had not much picture,

regarding with my 22 years old,

because i am not having a savvy tech phone,

a phone without a camera,

without music player...

now the trend has gone into new generation,

wifi internet wherever u will be...

shit...

it's time to earn money,

this time will not stop me anymore..

because i had no reason to say,
"i don't want to work anymore"

no such things as quit~

i wanna quit.. i give up..

no more... zzzzzz!

i am ready... to grab some money...
and shop as much as i could!

23years old begin for fews day already,

non of good sign yet?

hmm.... is praying really works?

i doubt that =(

Insomnia ~

2011-03-04T10:46:00.000-08:00

it's 5th of March 2011,

it's been two days after my birthday..

what a bloody fast moving ticking second huh?

however,

i am having Insomnia now ! at 2.48am (based on my pc clock time)

arghhhh ~

what's really make me stuck in my head?

haha...

old days in school....

oh my god, i miss my secondary school life..

it's history,

really history..

haha... sejarah ~ i read 1 of my friend's bloggie,

i hate sejarah ...

last time i was really the same,

uncontrollable feelings toward this subject,

ongoing saying that it was a "F**king sub"

but now?

i was recalling my personal history,

shall i hate it or miss it or loving it?

haha....

scouting old day awakes me,

once a scout, forever a scout huh??

it's really a sorrow hard feeling towards my achievement,

i gave up in last minute,

it was really a mistake,

however, there's no mistake in life,

but only lesson,

the lesson will repeated except u have learned it..

yea it is truth ~

i never learned it if this lesson has not came to me?

do not give up something which u really

serious on it, dare for it, sacrifice for it, loving it, desire for it,

and lastly is u DREAM of it..

or else.. u will end up just like me,

disappointment and feel sad..

a chance only shot only once,

times fly and never return to where it was..

"I MISS SCOUTING"

by gAry =)

堕落的日记～

2010-10-27T10:52:00.000-07:00

我
好堕落啊
无聊到
不知道该去哪里啊
工作懒惰找
不找又不行
可是该去哪？

近来，
很火，生火，就是火
就是说，我很不好
原因就是
我什么都没有
但是却不在乎
没有就没有
也无所谓
从不把人生的未来而紧张

真的是～！@#￥%……&×
我真的成为橡胶人了吗？
人生无起无跌
一切无所谓
没意见，没有主见！
常说的是“随便”
两个字，懒散！
上进心却不见
可悲的是，我没有感觉
明明就发现，明明就知道，
还是麻木麻木的接受
这样烂的生活
就是我在过着！

活力在那里？
上进心在哪？
乐观在哪里？
不见了。。。。。。。
已经不见了

俊之笔 ~

Update!

2010-10-08T08:23:00.000-07:00

Photos stand for history =)

with FAYE!

A lady with Gentlemen

"V" i am happy =)
now adays fat jor...
i miss my past life,
wouldn't needed to growth up,
how nice it was?

Back to Melaka

2010-08-20T23:42:00.001-07:00

i had been busy for internship,
industrial training...
damn the working life is kinda bored!
it's not fun as i thought, at all !
everyday just sitting there,
waiting times fly by,
and grown fatter and fatter,
gosh ~ can't believe i was currently from 64kg to 71kg,
it's kinda a lot man!
sh** ~
i have to work out again, otherwise,
might not attractive anymore xD!

however,
i was lucky enough that during internship,
i do have leave on duty, it's not just couple days!
it's couple weeks!
lol, those who internship just like me but do not have such benefit,
do not jealous ya ?

back to Melaka,
the first things i did is,
went to campus for a walk,
MultiMedia University is the name ~
it make me feels,
so warm, and maybe i was kinda old already,
graduating ~ lol.. my last semester in University,
i could not describe how "high" i am,
and sadly, i gonna miss it, very much

although life in Campus,
make me thought of nothing special at all,
but at least, i was here,
for 4 years time! sigh ~
time pass so fast,
going to enter another stage of life,
i am going to stuck in "sandwich" stage ~
earn for elder, my parents ~
earn for my future sweet home xD!

i guess, it was so long i didn't post anything,
and yet no picture at all,
sigh ~ i really old liao ~
happy all day to my friends =)

love letter , he he !

2010-07-10T03:31:00.000-07:00

I really miss u ~
i love you too..
wait for me =)

see you either KL,
or Melaka..
i cook for u ok?
i knew u will miss my cooking,
but do i really dreaming that u will?

wei,
i want your massage la!
it's so comfortable ~
haha...
i want to hug u when the first moment i met u,
wanna see you got slim or not?
everyday maggie maggie,
huh ~~ wanna kena beat ur "pi gu" liao

however,
where possible will slim down la xD!
that tummy always there 1..
hoho...

i want to bring u go resort beach play play a,
everybody wear bikini de wor?
so what's ur plan?
don't worry la.. show off only~
with bra only cheong into sea together ok?

hold my hands,
we go for trips..
have fun together ~
so.. wait for me,
my love ~~
miss you always !

soon Another Chapter in Life

2010-05-05T10:48:00.001-07:00

another chapter in life soon?
very soon?
my university life going to end,
what's the next step to be?

my parents are going to retire,
and i am already an adult now,
graduating? so soon,
very soon?

i will miss the study life,
anything ! just anything !
i will miss my youth life, very very much
forever always on my mind,

1 day, i slept in a silent night,
dreaming of the old days,
scouting? sporting? ICQ-ing? gaming?
i guess i really miss it very much.

well, soon i will become sandwich level in life,
which support my elder,
and the younger in the same time,
so soon to be this level

but i was afraid of it,
afraid i could not do it,
what if i failed ? it make me so no confident at all,
it is a mission that could not afford to failed

if only i could turn back time,
turn back to when the time i was young,
but is impossible! so,
Please Wake up Mr. Gary Yeik, stay strong to face the truth.

22nd April 2010

2010-04-21T14:46:00.000-07:00

Today i been for two movies,
with my love 1,
ops! sorry not today, yesterday,
12a.m. pass consider next day =)

first movie,
"Date Night" starring Steve Carell and Tina Fey
18SG in fact it's really funny,
was not seems to be an action movie but it is a comedy
overall, it is not bad, but not worth to watch in the cinema xD,
it is a comedy more than an action movie.

second movie,
"初恋红豆冰", starring 李心洁，阿牛，梁靜茹，品冠 and 曹格,
impressive, and glamorous ~
but eventually, i get disturbed by two strangers,
they are ladies, who sit beside me,
yea properly watch too much Taiwan Celebrities drama series
keep on talking to the screen and demanding the movie star,
to act as what they hope to see it happen in the screen.
because the love story was not that perfect as happen in the wonderland,
get what i means?
1 word to describe them, FAITH!!

I am going to sleep, Now! Immediately!
NightzzZzzZ? hahaha

初恋红豆冰, 赞！

2010-04-21T12:06:00.000-07:00

“初恋红豆冰”, 赞！

好久好久看戏没那么的感触了。
不知为什么，
这种感觉，
让我怀念，
当初小时候的我，
也是住在乡下的小镇里，
接触不少的朋友，
童年玩的游戏，
常常说的那几句，
长大的过程，
原来就是那样的活泼，
简单，而且愉快~
回想过去，
有喜的，
有苦的，
有玩的，
有哭的，
还有傻傻的！

这些它
让我不想长大，
可惜啊，真的可惜啊，
逃不过真实。。。。
只可以把所有的回忆，
藏在脑海里！
就只有这样。

谢谢阿牛！
一个字，赞！

Last Week of 21st

2010-02-23T11:11:00.000-08:00

I am back from hometown to University life once again ~

CNY... ah, no matter how u desire not to end,

it still had to be ended,

i mean, holiday ya ~

my 21st,

nothing surprising,

but what i really gifted,

which make me memorable,

they are ~

Watches as big gift,

from my University buddy,

a term "best" buddy could be as description,

however sometimes we had internal affair 1,

wahaha.... that's cute and complicated,

but at least we don't fight, still peaceful la!

thx you for all of you celebrate my 21st birthday before,

and hope it will had another party for this coming weeks!

lastly,

i had a great companion,

i earn my love relationship ~

haha... she is my dear of course,

we love each other,

i do remember, our first date,

is to watch movie at MBO cinema,

i trick her by saying i had a golden ticket ~

LOL, therefore is free ticket ~~

so.. it works.. ~ watched Wolverine,

oh yea...

and dunno in sudden,

at 9th of May 2009,

she became my love,

haha... Faye, muakz!

welcome to my life ~

-THE END-

做不成男女朋友，做个特别的朋友

2010-02-22T21:56:00.001-08:00

两个可能彼此相爱、喜欢的人，
但是，又不属于友情、爱情、亲情中的任何一种，
彼此不能成为男女朋友，只能做个特别的朋友……
也许是为了朋友之间的义气，不能归属。
也许是为了顾及家人的意见，不能归位。
也许是为了自己的前程，不能承诺。
也许是相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许是相遇太晚，彼此身边已经有了另一个人。
也许是回头太迟，对方已不再等待。
也许彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线……
不过即使没在一起，
彼此仍能找到塌实的感觉，
仍然会保持不隶属任何一种感情的关系。
但是彼此心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
因为有了彼此，心里总是被幸福塞的满满的……
即使不能彼此名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
彼此有喜欢的人，口头上会说不吃醋，
心里却会觉得胃疼……
对方遇到困难时，
会尽全力伸出援助之手，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。
对方生病了，
会缴尽脑汁找药方，
恨不得变成护士，陪伴在身旁……
每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。
一开始可能不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。
宁愿这样关心对方的心情，
总好过彼此生活在一起受伤害……
做不成男女朋友，
当个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？
你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢
很多的感情，
都败在了现实的面前……
友情可以演变成为爱情，
爱情最终进化成为亲情，
彼此就将友情直接进步到亲情……
人生不过百年……
能牵手的时候，请别只是肩并肩，
能拥抱的时候，请别只是手牵手，
能在一起的时候，请别轻易分开，
能成为红颜知己，请别刻意离开！
珍惜彼此之间塌实的感觉

-THE END-

lol this is not bad,
of course i wasn't the author,
cause i am not that pro..
lol ~

Last Drive before CNY

2010-02-13T10:18:00.000-08:00

Boring a~
wtf lo...
what to do o?
no road 1 haha...

i visit several friend's blog,
wow that's cool ~~~
some leng lui some leng zai,
creative, some really sweet ~~~
no wonder i wasn't attractive at all...

HMM,
I don have camera,
wish could snap some picture mayb?
sadly memory only store in mind,
what if i forget?

I don have money,
wish could earn some,
sadly i am a student,
what if i work?

I don have time,
wish i have much more time,
sadly i am not the person who could control time,
what if i could?

haha, everything is only if,
the truth still the truth,
during CNY, no picture, no money,
nor time as well..
but everybody happy,
That will be perfect ~~~~~~~

Update

2010-02-07T00:17:00.000-08:00

i believe i can do it...

update blog simple things...

how come i cannot do it?

sad...

i was wondering,

why my chinese so sucks...

too lazy to learn must be...

anyway...

chinese new year coming!

HAPPY new year!!

but valentine coming soon also..

why this year held at CNY first day...

zzzzzzz

AHHH!!

haha...

our first valentine couldn't make it anymore...

it is possible but,,

nvm ~~~~ i should give a surprise no matter what!

wahhaha!!!

Why don't understand!?

2009-10-03T01:42:00.001-07:00

why? Y?
why don't understand?
why cannot understand?
WHY...........
WHY...

get Away is a solution,
I don't want you continuously get hurt,
Continuously talk in emotionally,
Definitely WILL accidentally Speak out,
SOMETHING EVEN Worst..

BECAUSE,
I understand I AM such a FUCKER,
EQ FUCKING LOW,
I can't normally TALK emotionally,
I TRY to learn in ANGER MANAGEMENT,

so i TRY find A solution,
GET away to avoid continuously Hurt DEEPER
WHy Don't u Understand,
Or U WANT continuously Deeper?
Is THAT WHAT u want!?

LEAVE ME ALONE when i asked you to,
so now YOU know why?
AWAY from me won't get HURT,
let it PEACE, cooL
so LEAVE ME ALONE..
CUZ I don't WANT hurt You!

but I Realize,
u don't understand Why,
I DON'T expect anything,
My world is THat sucks, really SUX,
I Don't Need people to understand my world,
CUZ no 1 will... want to understand FUCKING SUCKING WORLD

Fictional Case Study

2009-10-02T09:03:00.000-07:00

-Fictional Character-
A - killer's only lover
B - killer
C - victim
D - victim's only lover
*Assumed that relationship between A and B is could not be replaced while C and D too.

-The Event-
B is a person who accidentally killed D,
so B is a killer and caused C lose D,

Situation 1************************************************************
B feel sad and uncomfortable, so B want to release guiltiness
and be responsible and compensate C by punish itself,
action by B is leaving A, B's only lovers, leaving A forever,
Go into the prison, admit the the wrong of killing D,
however, the compensation by B logically could not brought back D to life,
so since C is the victim in this case,
therefore C is the only key to lead nobody suffer.
-Question-
After B compensate C by going to jail and receive punishment,
will C happy, satisfy and forgive B, and forget about it?

-Hypothesis 1-
if C give positive answer, factor of such action could because of
C is generous, kind, and could forgive B,
even D is 1 of the important people in C's life.
if this case happen,
expected result,
A suffer due to lose of B, because B go to jail.
B suffer due to go to jail, but relief in guiltiness
C relief due to C forgive B for killing D and forget about it,but suffer losing D
D suffer due to could not live longer cause killed by B
overall losses,
A lose B
B lose A
C lose D
D lose C

-Hypothesis 2-
If C give negative answer, factor of such action could because of
C could not bear the effort of losing D, so painful for C to lose D,
plus D is 1 of the important people in C's life.
if this case happen, the expected result will be
expected result,
A suffer due to B compensate by receive own created punishment and leaving A.
B suffer due to B want compensate by received punishment.
C suffer due to obviously because of losing D.
D suffer due to could not live longer cause killed by B.
overall loses,
A lose B
B lose A
C lose D
D lose C

Situation 2************************************************************
B choose to runaway from admit the truth,
and there is nothing to prove B is the killer,
and B continue to stay along together with A,
so in such decision, ethically it was wrong to do so,
and D had been killed by B, Is a forever loses for C,
cause death could not back into life.
so since C is the victim in this case,
therefore C is the only key to lead nobody suffer.
-Question-
After B runaway from truth, will C happy, satisfy and forgive B, and forget about it?

-Hypothesis 3-
if C give positive answer, factor of such action could because of
C is generous, kind, and could forgive B,
even D is 1 of the important people in C's life.
if this case happen,
expected result,
A relief because B didn't go into jail.
B relief because B didn't go into jail, but might be suffer and guilty forever.
C relief due to C forgive B for killing C's lover and forget about it.
D suffer due to could not live longer cause killed by B.
overall loses,
A didn't lose B
B didn't lose A
C lose D
D lose C

-Hypothesis 4-
If C give negative answer, factor of such action could because of
C could not bear the effort of losing D, so painful for C to lose D,
plus D is 1 of the important people in C's life.
if this case happen, the expected result will be
expected result,
A relief because B didn't go into jail
B relief because B didn't go into jail, but might be suffer and guilty forever
C suffer because losing D, the only lovers of C
D suffer due to could not live longer cause killed by B
Overall loses,
A didn't lose B
B didn't lose A
C lose D
D lose C

-The Conclusion-
i wasn't bias in concluding anything, to prove i wasn't, u are human so think logically,

If you are A, which hypothesis you will choose?
If you are B, which hypothesis you will choose?
If you are C, which hypothesis you will choose?
If you are D, which hypothesis you will choose?

you will find out what's at other people shoes when you are any of them,
you will understand why specific character will choose such answer,
you will realize there is no actual right answer at all,
you will learned everything require sacrifices,

and i am certainly understand,
the world is wonderful because had variety of different kind of people,
and no 1 is the same..
different view will concluded different answer.
different character choose different answer,
some might have their own specific answer that out these choices,
it depends on people's opinion, reason, factors of selection,
and no answer is the right answer.

BUT.......
is the world FAIR all the time?
is this realistic world will allow u knowing, contacting
someone good ALL THE TIME? if only u are lucky enough
sometimes environment force us to becoming someone u don't want to be,
is not u wanted to be, is u force to be, FORCE TO BE!

who like someone who is selfish?
who don't like someone who is generous?
who like someone who is a liar?
who don't like someone who is honest?
who can answer these question correctly?
think about it.....

Write with Peace

2009-10-02T06:07:00.001-07:00

-The Lame Poem-

We were born with,
own specialty into this world,
own personality,
own dreams,
own negative,
own cognitive,
own bla bla bla..

The world is violence which came a lot of question,
why we have to fight?
why we have to debate?
why we can't understand each other?
why we can't listen to each other?
why we didn't tolerate?
why we didn't peacefully stand into people shoes?

So the factor behind,
because uncontrollable ego of fight.
because debating to overwhelm own dissatisfaction of opinion.
because did not care about understanding of opponent.
because of selfishness wants other to listen to you first.
because tolerated but it did not works.
because we don't stand people shoes and understand others.

Therefore,
that is only just my opinion,
this should not belong to others opinion,
that is only just my view,
this should not expect others to agree,
that is only just my bias cognitive,
this should let people understand you,

But..
what's the point for u to have such opinion at first?
what's the point for u to calm down let other understand?
what's the point for u to egoism wants other to agree with you?
what's the point for u to be reasonable?
what's the point for u to be not selfish?

I know the answer,
because i am stupid.
because i am f**k up.
because i am sucker.
because i am piece of shit.
because i am selfish.
because i am in love with something that i would not imagine how if i lose it.

today is last day ~

2009-08-09T00:53:00.000-07:00

last day in my hometown,
going back to hell university for further studies,
stupid la why so fast holiday gone = =

i woke up today,
at noon 12 pm,
however after few text with Faye,
i slept back xD..

i am dreaming,
i dream of my secondary school sir,
he told me i had chance to play a role in sport competition,
asked me to trained well to ready for it!
haha, i love sport so much,
i miss long jump triple jump those track field competition,
so so so much ~ i am so happy..
it was so happy i could have a chance to participate
however, it just a dreams,
nevermind la.. it's past should leave it as memories,
seek for future ~

woke up at 3pm after backing short nap,
go for lunch of course,
it should consider tea time already,
my grandma ready vermicella curry for me,
it taste so good even though,
water added into the curry, due to shortage of curry,
haha.. it was an overnight curry,
is our family culture to have mee curry
as breakfast, lunch ~ save up while we enjoy it too...

grandma ready it for me,
i saw her face full of sweat,
with a caring preparation for me,
i am standing there,
thinking in my mind my heart,
appreciate it so much,
thanks grand ma, that's what i can say,

for so many years she been taking care of me,
watch me growth ya, i am 21st,
it's very lucky for me, still have a grandma,
take care of me... i appreciate it,
i scare to lose it too, however it is unavoidable ~
at least, wait after the day i married ya...

i am leaving today,
another period for me to meet my grandma again,
my brother as well, muahaha !
at home just relaxing ~
well that's not enough, human are greedy!
including me xD ~~
thanks god to have a chance for me come back home,
buiii buii ~

Missing ~

2009-08-08T13:21:00.000-07:00

i missing her,
my bao bei dear xiao fei,
it's been a week we didn't meet already,
anyway,
i will see her on monday,
haha,
finally we can meet each other ~
can see her 38 face again,
hehe...

well during this holdiay, at first,
spent in genting highland,
for assignment project,
which is global marketing,
stupid trip cause me spent for extra,
i can stay in my mum apartment but i can't, sigh ~
had to stick with the plan purpose by the lecturer,
the reason was so simple,
to avoid any extra trouble,
make it more simple.. that's why,
stick with the plan no matter what reason u are!
i was just stood there and ".................."
haha...

however,
it's alright, at least i can meet my parents,
and my brother as well,
after trip back from genting to my hometown of course!
sweet home bagan serai xD~~
eat sleep eat sleep,
and tomrrow again had to travel back to melaka,
what the hell, i will miss home again,
so fast ~ but i can see faye, ok lo~~ haha..

during this holiday,
mostly i spend in my house,
walk around, sit sit,
play games, sigh ~
but there's a day,
go out for fun ~
haha.. unexpected day which i go out with a leng zai xD~
NO la.. she is milku, wife to U-Know, girlfriend to Xiah,
now u see, her relationship was so complicated = =...
been to taiping, eat ice-cream, song!
then watch movie,
popcorn is a must because she told me,
USA's popcorn is salty de = =,
wah... haha...so must buy ma cin cai lo ~

after movie,
dinner time!
at taiping, hehe... then, balik kampung lo~
haha.. no camera, if not can snap for memories,
it was very hard for us to gather together,
cause she wanna fly back to USA liao,

many conversation between us la,
shocking la, lame de la, bla bla bla,
she was H1N1 second victim in M'sia = =,
and yet i dunno, wahh ~
get scold by her till mama a bit more cannot recognize,
hahahah~ luckily she is fine,
or else i will be very sad because i dunno at all.. lol
and she share with me the experience,
isolated for a week in the hospital,
facing pressure from the media cause she was so lucky to be number 2!
well it's a good experience but she is strong to face it, wahaha....
an qi, u really yeng and SHUAI!

at last, aun khee, take care ok?
keep say i not remembering u.. haha ~

what's my direction now?
heading to melaka soon,
meet 38 Faye a ~ !
haha... see you soon my dear... happy holiday ^^

StreSS!

2009-07-28T04:37:00.001-07:00

STRESSS A!
!@#%^....

I HATE exam!
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LATER 1 subject,
consumer behavior,
Gary,
WISH you GOOD LUCK!!!

F** Ixora Management

2009-07-23T22:47:00.000-07:00

mother f**k ixora management,
first of all..
here is the case..

make it simple

LAST FRIDAY
i go for bill payment,
SHE is the one who handle me,
i say i want to pay whole year payment,
it get 7% discount,
SHE said,
i can't get discount of 7%,
because i am later than the due date the management propose to me,
well it is understandable because i didn't full fill the condition of payment,

but...
i able to get 4% of discount payment,
for WHOLE YEAR,
yea that's what SHE told me,
and she double confirm with her manager,
MR. LEE,
whoever stay ixora should know of this dog manager MR.LEE,
and YES, that's the answer,
so since she confirm with her boss,
and also gave me 4% discount payment,
alright, so finish...

TODAY
phone call wakes me up,
"excuse me is this Nai Jun, please approach to ixora management office,
cause your bill payment had some PROBLEM"
by the way,
before i been to office,
i already forecast, what the hell is going on,
and i was right... wakaka!
must be the payment of the discount rate 4% should only applied for half year payment,
(4% discount entitle if u do half year payment)
and the other payment beside the half year discount payment,
should consider as full payment...
and a guy name STEVEN,
HE served me, explain to me this that bla bla bla,
but i don't really need to listen because i knew that,
all HE explain in the end is, i have to pay more lo,
and require me to return the previous receipt to them,
what else to do...

so,
argument started,
i denied to pay for extra,
cause it is not my mistake to give me discount rate,
i just follow the payment SHE propose to me,
and i did my payment already,
i even get my receipt already,
since it is benefit to me, what for to pay extra?

then,
STEVEN act as my mummy to teach me a lesson,
but the funny things is...
HE really sis sis, like girl, ain't man like me at all xD
HE emotional pointing u in the same time with his hand and finger swinging around,
can u imaging that reaction?
say that i this attitude very bad la this that la,
and he claim that HE is very politely explaining the issues to me,
well that true but that's no need in our expectation as customer,
since that's HIS duty as service firm,
but teaching me but calling me YEIK NAI JUN,
saying that i very bad attitude, because i already late for payment (that's right)
but wow! that's cute! HE call my full name!!!!
at least call me MR.
my name is special, don't speak it loudly.
I don't see the service is polite, cause speak your name in FULL without a MR.

all i want is an apologize from the management,
very simple, and i will do all the payment, no problem
because, first of all,
SHE is an inexperience front officer,
cause she is new, then she gave me 4% discount for whole year payment instead of half-year,
but HER mistake is nothing to do with me,
plus SHE already confirm with MR.LEE the dog manager too,
and i get the RECEIPT as well,
from here we can see the transaction already closed.

and that STEVEN won't say sorry,
cause HE keep mention SHE is new,
so SHE dunno,
what do u mean SHE dunno?
f**king management,
SHE dunno is non of our business,
management send a non professional officer to deal,
that's their problem,
so is your mistake to send someone who DUNNO.
u mistake but still denied to apologize,
i ain't asking their personal sorry,
just i already assume HE the STEVEN in the office dealing with me,
therefore HE is representing management of Ixora Apartment,

wahaha.. anyway,
i am very satisfy to see STEVEN girlish face to scold me,
his impatient anger spread out,
really funny,
but...
and i don't have time to create trouble,
just want to stay in peace,
i ain't USA people, what also fight for right,
sue this sue that, optimistically let it go,
except big amount la...
so at last i just pay the extra 50 bucks, case closed!

this is based on True Story,
so my friend,
they still assuming u should pay for extra,
will you?
or fight for the right not to pay for extra since,
transaction closed, and already had receipt in your hand as well!

in conclusion, THE SERVICE OF IXORA MANAGEMENT sucks!
that's what we can conclude..
ladies and gentleman,
do u AGREE? wahhhahahaha

Tag by Faye

2009-07-21T03:08:00.000-07:00

RULE AND REGULATION
1.被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
2.請老實的回答每一個問題。
3.不行擅自塗改題目。
4.寫完請點8位朋友，不可不點。
5.點完後請通知那8位小朋友他被點到了。

I VERY RESPECT people de lo....
I VERY HONEST also de lo....
I VERY STEADY won't change the question de lo....
I VERY LESS friend only leh, so no need tag lo....
I VERY BUSY so wait them realize themselve lo....
but stupid la.. my chinese sucks, 好难拼音啊！!
Nevermind! Just Do IT!

。。。。個人題 - 10 題。。。。
01 你叫什么：Gary
02 你的綽號：LENG ZAI (wahahaa), 叶乃乃，加哩鸡，猪，Bangkali, 奶瓶。够了吧？
03 你的血型：AB +
04 你的星座：Pisces 双鱼座
05 你是男還是女：好男人。。hehe
06 你幾歲：21
07 你住哪裡：住在你心里 ~
08 你現在的學校：MMU (Money Making University), MELAKA
09 你有沒有手機：好像是有啦有啦@@
10 承上，那是多少：一个不够～　xixi! 可怜的是我只有一个～

。。。。朋友題 - 10 題。。。。
11 你最要好的朋友（限１個）：王 Soo Han
12 你最討厭的人（限１個）：现在没有了！cuz life is too short for me to hate someone

。。。。情題 - 10 題。。。。
21 你有沒有喜歡的人：当然有啦，喜欢上一个 3 8 ~
23 如果没有，你希望什麼時候有另一半：我哪里懂！
24 到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過： 6个
25 到目前為止，你被多少人告白過：4个
26 到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋友：目前第5个
27 你現在有另一半嗎: 有咯，她给我骗掉liao。呵呵! wahaha!
28 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣：我会回答他说：“你妈的，你不去死！是不是desperate到没有女人给你碰啊？带你去叫鸡one night stand 吧！”
29 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎：hehe, 看先！哈哈！但是，我女朋友肯定杀死我！所以，不会！！！！！
30 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人：因为我笨蛋被她电到了！哈哈。。
31 你和另一半牽手過嗎：当然啦！
32 你的另一半抱或親過嗎: 这是一定的，哈哈，她功夫还蛮厉害的leh = =""
33 你跟異性牽手過嗎：有啊
34 是誰，你們什麼關係：我管他是谁，那时候玩游戏，有办法meh？
35 現在有人在追你嗎：诶，我现在都没有在跑。。是在坐着，哪里来的人追我啊？不要吓我!

。。。。混合題 - 10 題。。。。
36 如果有天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣：我。。。经历过了，我哭着祝福他在另一个世界活得快乐。。。。。
37 如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你會：在他的面前笑咯！知道他的真面目，多好！
38 如果有天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了，你會：who can tell me what is 喜新厭舊了? 不明白，so ignore!
39 如果你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎：外面的世界比较危险，躲在家无论如何父母还是会养我吃饭，为何想不开哦？哈哈哈。。。。
40 你上課認真嗎：从来不听，没办法，太多美女跟我聊天。。
41 你功課好不好：一个字，烂！哈哈哈哈！
42 你开电腦都在幹麻：温习功课。。哈哈哈！谁会相信哦？在色情网站看video咯！这每个人都say "of course!".
43 你的即时通有多少个同性: 不明白，so ignore!
44 你的即时通裡有多少個異性：还是不明白，so ignore!

。。。。兇手題 - 10 題。。。。
45 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：38 Fei lo..
46 这個人對你好不好：每天都会被她折磨啊！T.T! 所以我非说“好”不可，请你了解我的立场吧！哈哈。。。
47 這個人是你的誰：我的唯一！女朋友
48 你有喜歡過這個人嗎：比喜欢还要重！爱着她啦！
49 你們認識多久了: 3 年 1 个月15天1小时23分42秒。。 lol, 准的！
50 這個人是怎樣的人：野蛮！粗鲁第一名！可是也有温柔的一面啦！只有我可以看到哦。。娃哈哈！
51 這個人正／帥嗎：两个都不是！漂亮拉！
52 這個人跟你有沒有在一起过：一起冲凉吗? 没有~~
53 萬一你喜歡這個人，你會怎麼办：电她咯！哈哈哈。。。^^

。。。。聯想題 - 10 題。。。。
56 說到正妹你會想到誰：Emma Watson
57 說到帥哥你會想到誰：我自己咯。。娃哈哈！
58 說到憨你會想到誰：不明白！so ignore!
59 說到痴你會想到誰：张柏芝
60 說到暗戀你會想到誰： Loh Fu Cai
61 說到出去玩你會想到誰：Lim Yew Chuan
62 說到聰明鬼你會想到誰：Matt Damon (Jason Bourne)
63 說到傻子你會想到誰: Heath Ledger (The Joker)
64 說到笑點低你會想到誰 : 想不到
65 說到愛笑你會想到誰 : Heath Ledger (The Joker)

。。。。學校題 - 11 題。。。。
66 你的班導是誰：沒有
67 你的座位是第幾排第幾個：哪里都是啦！
68 你最喜歡的老師是誰：小学，陈朱立老师
70 你的英文好嗎：一个字，烂！
71 你的體育好嗎：好得不得了
72 你的数学好么：一个字，栏！
73 你喜不喜歡你的校長：干他的小弟弟啊！假期减少，学费增加！@#$#^#&
74 你的學校好看嗎：Cyberjaya 真的是美。。但 Melaka? ACR 不错看咯！
75 你的班級是：HELL I KNOW!

i want to tag
1）Charmaine Chai Hui Leng
2）Chan Jun Zhe
3）Er Hui Ping (Kao pe kao pe)
4) Lim Yuen Shun ( Noob)
5）Pun Chee Wei
6）Neoh Aun Khee
7）Samantha Wong Chai Hui
8）lastly, Amber Chen Ee Lin

Horror Movie I Await it~

2009-07-17T15:03:00.001-07:00

First - "Orphan"

"There's Something Wrong With Esther."

Crazy over Horror!
Waiting "Orphan" hit the theater!
oh yea...
i just like horror very much...
Faye say i am nuts.. zz!
haiz.. haha~
who can accompany me for the movie? haha...
date me!

actually not scary 1 la.. just a movie.. lol

Official Website of this movie - www.orphan-movie.com
&
view the trailer~ hehe...

2nd - "Sorority Row"

The trailer seems like very cool wor,
hoho... but this movie definitely won't show in Malaysia,
Z! see the trailer knew jor.. haha..
Nevermind ~ all i have to do is download!xD
but... someone be my company? haha.. so that i won't that boring,
when scare can hug someone.. hahaha~!

importantly, the guy name's gary in the movie XD!
unfortunately he is the guy who cheated her gf :(...

Official Website - thetapi-ordie.com
here's the trailer :P

Sleepy

2009-07-17T14:15:00.001-07:00

aihz !
sleepy..
but finally complete new outcome of blog..
didn't search for new skin,
just modify..
xD..

however,
not bad what...
hahhaha~
for me is not bad la..
can see can read ok liao..

jia lat la,
many assignment to go,
wanna ki siao liao..
think about this really siao!
besides,
my life style slightly changed,

i eat more,
exercise less jor,
no more fit liao T.T..
hahaa..
really become fei zai jor! xD..

I miss home,
i wanna go back and see my grandma,
my brothers...
stupid MMU,
minus our semester break,
really wtf... ~!@$^$#^&
now a days MMU, already uselss jor!

task to be complete,
7 assignment to go
4 subject to be revise
2 mountain clothes to wash
1 dirty kitchen to clean up
1 messy room to be tidy up
9.10 of debt to be collect from my housemate
4 text book to buy
1 bejewel game to score 250k xD!
lastly,
1 person to miss, that's you la! pig!

erm,
i guess no more!? :p

good Night!

Update !!!

2009-07-15T03:47:00.001-07:00

aiks...
till so long never touch a blog..
going to update soon!
but..
before this,
i want to search for new skin~~
xD!

gAry ~~~~~~~~~~~

go backwards

2009-06-22T10:04:00.000-07:00

haiz,
currently she's sick..
Faye sick le!
my fault la!
didn't take care of her,
now fever liao..
zzz...
faster recover 38!

long time no blog liao lo,
what am i doing for so long time?
holiday,
keep travel here and there only,
not really got mood to write during holiday,
cause traveling really tired,

let's see where had i been,

2nd of June 2009,
Cameron Highlands, Pahang

visiting my relative who stay overthere,
plan to visit their vegetable farm,
unfortunately,
their son had basketball competition at Raub,
lol, Faye's hometown,
my cousin still inviting me to join them to Raub,
haha.. i wish i could go,
but i know, it is not possible for me to make it,
cause i wasn't traveling alone,
with mum, dad, uncle, grandma and brother,
wahaha, Cameron Highland so cold,
i wanna challenge to bath with cold water,
but it never happen la, suffer till die a!
just 2 days 1 night trip, however,
it's cool, the next day, went back home agian lo!
but.... i want picture uploaded here,
and the picture not with me.. arghhh!

4th of June 2009
Bukit Mertajam, Penang

1 day travel there,
i am the driver again,
sien sial..
wanna cry.. so tiring to drive,
but it is important to travel there,
cause had to return the Toyota Innova to my uncle,
haha.. he urge to use it!
go there, sit sit,
play my uncle's house's piano,
had a meal together with them,
well, overall, it was a family gathering!
hehe... who cares? can eat a big meal,
definitely it satisfy me a lot luu!
i am pig in eating xD

5th of June 2009
Genting Highlands, Pahang

haha! second hometown,
a last minute plan, decided to go,
because i want to accompany my little brother,
suppose i will stay in hometown but change my mind,
brother come first.. haha,
drive to genting,
again driver = = T.T >.<..
go for a week!
my life there is simple,
wake up eat, sleep,
wake up eat, sleep xD!
not that boring la,
got swimming, movie with daddy and brother, and mum,
gym, basketball..
buffet twice with brother,
that is why now i fat 3 more kg.. OMG!

and i met Gracie in Genting,
she work as part time there,
and we laugh together when we met,
cause she is 1 of my best friend,
erm, i think i also the same to her lo xD!
yum cha in the night lo,
both go online in the caferia which provide Wi-Fi,
but slow till bejewel also cannot play, lame!
however, so happy can see her in Genting!

9th of June 2009,
Kuala Lumpur, WP

hehe, what a surprise plan,
been to KL for what?
haha, to meet Faye,
so many days didn't meet her,
i so miss her, aha ~
both of us go for walk,
met her second brother for the first time,
eat lunch in Wong Kok Hong Kong Restaurant,
stupid service cause we wait almost 1 hour only,
the food served,
cause us hungry and angry xD!
haha.. however, the meal is free!
thx Brother Samuel.
then samuel drop us in The Mines!
Faye and I went for movie at TGV cinema,
Alien Vs Monster,
laugh lo, haha... that movie totally for children de = =...
haha.. nvm la.. back to childhood time ma!
night time, we hug each other,
sleep together, and meet in dreams xD!
she like a pig la... still say me,
also sleep till long long lu~ haha...
sweet dreams cause finally we meet again..
the next day,
again had to seperate with her lo,
back to Genting and she back to Melaka lo,
i still remember...
she scold me 38 cause i walk back to her once again,
to say goodbye to her before she leaving to melaka,
lol!

11st of June 2009,
travel back from Genting

say good bye to Genting lo!
and travel in the
midnight lagi, crazy!
i drive again lo.. so tiring ~
haha... but is alright,
at least i able to drive all the way back to my hometown,
reach home around 4am!
boom and sleep lo!

12nd of June 2009,
Bagan Serai, Perak

oh here we are again,
back to my hometown,
why back?
cousin sister marriage lo,
wow so many relative back!
chat this chat that...
then at night wedding dinner,
i go sing k at the stage,
omg, sing 命中注定... lol!
i so scare but nvm la... for fun lo!

14th of June,
Ayer Tawar, Perak

my grandma sick le,
T.T sad..
my father must be preasure for it,
i can feel it although he didn't share the affair of the family,
with us, the younger generation,
but i understand..
big family had issues to solve, and it is not easy to be the eldest..
been for visit lo,
haha...
well she is fine,
and i feel release after knowing she is fine,
my grandma is fine !
haha... so overnight 1 day,
speak and chit chat with my uncle and aunt,
and will back to Melaka and study life agian lu,
so the next day, travel back lo!
but...

what a surprise,
a belated birthday celebration,
which organize by my family,
for me! haha..
21st birthday is already so far away,
but they say it should cause the special year i had,
wow i get an angpao worth 100 ringgit,
which cause my brother to beh song about it,
haha... saying it's not fair! lol..
been to pizza hut,
grandma aunt uncle father mother brother,
celebrate for me...
wow first time i feel so warm and happy,
that my family celebrate with me,
although it is already so far away,
but.. it really touched me,
thanks mum and dad, love you!

15th June 2009
Bukit Beruang, Melaka,

haha.. fianlly here again,
finish packing,
unload my beg!
everything..
visit MMLS,
MMU webpage,
all about education matter...
and here i am again,
MMU student back to normal...
continue degree course,
and wish i could really pass my result with flying colour!
haha...
Faye, let's jia you together lo!
Gambatea ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

that's how i spent my holiday,
THE END!

Late Posted - exam week!

2009-06-01T07:17:00.000-07:00

haha,
i love to post soemthing,
which is long long ago de,
but what to do,
not free for so long,
currently holiday is the time,
i can do blogging!
haha...
but i don't have picture with me..
sigh,
will update again,
haha..

so to be continue ~!
haha

Holiday ~

2009-06-01T07:00:00.000-07:00

currently where am i?
haha... hometown oo..
Bagan Serai...
today is the 1st June,
which mean is 3rd day of holiday..
this semester break,
not really can enjoy much oo,
cause it was just 2 weeks time only,
really wtf with my MMU,
that president, ~!@%$^&*
haha! i don't meant it !
don't kick me out of the university..

well well,
exam is over,
seems like nothing for me to fight for it?
how could it be,
again i lost?
i feel that wasn't doing good in this semester once again,
i dunno why i didn't really,
work hard into it,
few subject which i am taking this semester,
suppose to score,
but during final examination, last minute preparation time,
i less put effort already....
i did revise, just, i didn't really put all my effort,
a big disappointment towards myself,
cause i don't mind if result not that good,
i demand for pass only,
but requirement in the realistic world is,
the better u are the best

why i don't mind at all?
i will just relax, not nervous to face exam at all,
i believe i am talent but i am lazy,
i had morality with me,
i just left something which is important for me to push,
that is the fighting spirit towards academy..

but,
i am happy, optimistic!
haha... i got friends with me,
i got my family supporting,
i believe i can do better in the future,
for myself of course,
and for you..
all the time i know, got u right beside me,
support me.. cause i love you, u love me..
but motivation to studies hard,
i will gained from you ~
hohoho, u will be something i worth to fight for it,
cause i had many things going to face,
with you..

wish me good luck for next semester ~
i coming for you!

Tag - From Charmaine

2009-05-22T05:18:00.000-07:00

wow you had tag me,
i no reply sure u kill me!

Beside your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
[My Feet XD]

How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
[Hungry + Sleepy Z!]

Who was the last person/people you took a picture with?
[3 8 Fei lo]

Would you consider yourself spoiled?
[= =, I spoil people got la!]

Will you donate blood?
[Ya, Type is AB+ , Universal Receiver]

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
[Of cuz, person who tagged me!]

Do you want someone to be dead?
[ YA! The devil who influnced me not 2 study = = ]

What does your last text message say?
[Want fat a! haha.. ya lo.. want eat.. i think.. can stand till tomorrow gua.. after this subject.. i will be free.. law can slow slow studies..]

What are you thinking right now?
[Really WTF, 2moro Finance Examination]

Do you want someone to be with you right now?
[She, but i can independantly survive ^^]

What was the time you went to bed last night?
[1am++...ZZzzz]

Where did you buy tee you are wearing right now?
[From my mum, cuz i am naked, left only my body skin lol]

Is someone on your mind right now?
[Grandma]

Who was the last person who text you?
[My girl, Faye]

Who is No.2 having a relationship with?
[u go ask Her la! kaope back 9 u, so better say dunno!]

Is No.3 is male or female?
[External Female Internal Male XD]

If No.7 and No.1 get togather, would it be good?
[Huh!Better don't hurt my best Friend Milku]

What is No.1 studying about?
[Innovation Management? Dunno la! but know is noob course]

When was the last time you chatted with them?
[With Shun, Just now noon, with Milku, very long ago lu]

Is No.4 single?
[= =, ya!]

Say something about No.2
[Erm, Adorable? Rich? Kao Pe? i think i better say dunno = =]

Waht do you think No.3 and No.6 being togather?
[Hue Min got xiao sun liao xD]

Describe No.9
[Daisy? she is nice girl ! Faye say she got "qi zi"]

What will you do if No.6 and No.7 fight?
[i will say, "ei, Don't la! Pantai Hospital waiting u 2 o"]

Do you like No.8?
[yes i like her, as my friend ok?]

Ten lucky fella gonna do this quiz....^^...

1. Yuen Shun
2. Hui Ping
3. Samantha Wong
4. Yee Hoong
5. Kar Lai
6. Hue Min
7. Aun Khee
8. Shi Hui
9. Daisy
10. Li Lin

KL trip

2009-05-12T03:23:00.000-07:00

Birthday Guy
first of all,
begin with, Lun!
happy birthday to you ~
haha.. our kl trip were meant to say birthday happy to you!
although we not so closed ~
u are a good man ,
but is ur birthday xD ! so happy birthday..

"Lun, happy birthday ~"

"Lunch at KimGary ~ my restaurant xD"

Lunch
We had our wonderful lunch,
at Kim Gary restaurant,
after Yee Wen is here, she is Faye's best friend,
classmate next to beside,
number 1 but beside is the last number
bla bla bla, we can see, they were best friend ~
sure nice to met a best friend right?
definitely happy for u, and Wen too ~
"Yee Wen & Faye"

"like this design ~ Us "

"yea ~ our Feet"

Shopping !
of course, in the same time, we walk together,
shop together, with yee wen,
we took picture, haha..
ss lo ~ suppose i had a responsibility to control Faye expenses,
but i encourage her to try and bought that shirt = =,
haha.. it really suit her,
and bought it lo, i believe she no regret at all.

it's late, she need to go home lol!
after since Yee Wen back,
we proceed our journey to Pavillion,
but i found that..

"Starhill gallery & LV"

that 3 8 never been to Starhill galery xD,
so, go visit la ~
enjoy Night scene, it's beautiful ~
am i right ? haha..
i remember something, when we on our ways back to time square,
Faye told me she walk with her ex before = =",
on that road we walking there
beside mamak of Sungai Wang Plaza...
lol ~ but is puppy love,
and she told me,
first time walk with someone she serious with,
it make me feel, surprise yet happy
cuz i know she meant it, she really meant it ~

another scene!
when we took 大头贴 picture,
Xiao Nan and Lun dunno fly to where jor = =,
i noob la, dunno how to pose,
dunno how to design,
soli neh !
haha.. in the end kena scold xD ~

"Our Picture ~ by Faye"

An Incident
My cap a!
drop it somewhere in KL,
gone le.. zzz!
sad a ~
rm 15 neh! just bought 1!
how could it be... lol,
nvm la.. optimistic me ~
got Hue Min you mo de an wei,
ask me wear helmet replace as cap zZz!
plus Faye say will buy new 1 for me xD!
haha, no need waste money buy la miss,
is ok la..
next time i buy again haha..

"want u to smile ~ always"

Faye, it's true we both are happy for the simple trip, right?
i..
want you smile always,
want you laugh always,
want you happy always,
want you feel great always,
n i appreciate u as
my girl ~

LASTLY, STUDY HARD EXAM COMING!!!!!!!!!

sincerely, Jun ~~

tag by qiiqi

2009-05-09T13:10:00.000-07:00

name - Gary .
sisters - Nil .
brothers - 3 (I am the 2nd) .
shoe size - 9 .
where do u live - currently Melaka Ixora Apartment
favourite drinks - Sky juice .
favourite breakfast - 2 half boil egg .
have you been on the plane - Only once .
swam in the ocean - No .
broken someone's heart - Yes, useless me .
fallen asleep in school - No! that's a fake xD .
fell of your chair - Yup, stupid me .
sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call - Yes, the person i care .
saved e-mails - Yes, but accidentally deleted, Sad! my friends picture .
what is your room like - sharing with a man, fill with pc, single bed, and it's tidy
what is the last thing you ate - gardenia bread with peanut butters .

`EVER HAD

chicken pox - yes, when i was 8 years old .
stitches - Yes, play knife too much .
broken nose - Never .
do you believe in love at first sight - I believe it but that's not my style
who was the last person you danced with - dance? Mango jie xD!
last person who made you smile - Faye

`TODAY DID YOU

talked to someone you like - yes, i did, i am not alone .
kissed anyone - hope so lol .
get sick - yes, fever soon .
talked to an ex - no .
missing someone - yes, i miss you, that's you .
best feeling in the world - u will always had someone beside u .
do you sleep with stuffed animals - no .
what's under your bed - computer accessories.
what is the time now - 4.34am .

`RANDOM

is there a person on your mind right now - yes, my grandma and mum, is mothers day .
do you want children - i want, cause i hope to be a good father,really .
do you smile often - no, i always down & emo, but i guess, i always smile now :)
what colour shirt are you wearing now - green singlet, show the sexy body i had .
when did you cry last - when faye say yes to me .
are you a friendly person - people say, i am .
where is the person you have feelings for right now - at her home, msn on9 lo .
do you eat healthy - i cook myself, but less eat fruit .
do you still have pictures with you and your ex - yes, but is time to let it go .
have you ever cried because of something someone said to you - yes i did .
if you're having a bad day , who are you most likely to go to - myself, cause i don want other sad with me .
are you loud or quiet most of the time - will changed in certain situation
are you confident - no i am not .

5 SNACKS I ENJOY

1 . Lolipop
2 . Potatoes chip
3 . Nil .
4 . Nil .
5 . Nil .

5 Person I have to tag

1 . Yee Hoong
2 . Jance
3 . Tracy Cheng
4 . Joan
5 . Yuen Shun

happies day ~

2009-05-09T12:23:00.000-07:00

9th may 2009,
is a big day,
for me..
for her too maybe?
aha~

i,
excited,
nervous,
scare,
worry,

it's simple..
because i 4 in love to her,
but not dare to tell,
and i did today..
no regret,
cause i am yours now.
appreciate everything,
especially you..

your lovingly, gAry

8th May - part 2

2009-05-09T11:13:00.000-07:00

simple date,
wear simple,
me short pant & white T,
she pink T, with short pant,
ride motor go out xD,
wearing helmet,
drive below 60 km/j speed,
cause break not good in condition
and lol, luckily no rain = =

where are we going?
we go Jalan Gajah Berang watching wesak celebration,
some picture as below ~~

Have our dinner,
>.< .. 10 something only we eat, go jonker lo,
haha, fei and me,
both also dunno decide where to eat,
in the end decide with luck ~~~
jian dao shi tou pu.. she win go here, i win go there,
in the end she win = =..
haha, "wan tan mee", i curry de, her's normal,
order some sushi,
aiks i plan to share with her,
but she don want zzz.. cost 6 bucks neh!
she apply some wasabi, not just some, quite a lot,
that 3 8.. z!
lol the taste so "chi kek"

"my face after makan wasabi with sushi of salmon fish"

wow, finish at 11pm,
rush to cinema liao..
although time is flexible, got 1145 and 1245,
haha... we decided to rush for 1145,
start our journey, reach there around 1130pm,
haha, lucky me,
mbo gifted me 1 golden ticket for 2 people seat,
cause i am member and it's my birthday gift ^^
haha used that day,
for x-men origin, wolverine ~
so it's free!!

lol, we both 3 8 lo,
at cinema also talk so much,
luckily nobody angry,
you la!

"MBO ticket wolverine"

finish movie?
We go ep burger yum cha,
soda mandung.. remember that's the name =p!
send her back,
read the story book gifted by Swen, the leng zai (envy)
title is about Dreams ~
wah his creative design were cool,
got fei inside, it's really exactly the same..

guitar, first time touch it,
i love guitar, automatically play,
sorry i not pro like kims them lol,
but i have passion on it, haha..
we chat lo..
at last, finally, is time to go home..
cycle back in the midnight ~
and that's it, "good bye faye",
that's the end of the night...

"faye & me, in the middle of the road ~~"

Goodbye to you

2009-05-08T03:42:00.000-07:00

I love this song,
i will play this song,
with my guitar,
i will sing it,
with my voice,
and i will smile ~~~~~~~~~~
wahahaa! cham i really 3 8 = =
it's in my blog,
enjoy!
------------------------------------
Michelle Branch - Goodbye To You

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

- The END -

8th may 2009

2009-05-08T03:35:00.001-07:00

oh today i got a date,
haha..
wesak day..
let's go for dinner,
movie,
walk walk..
haha...

aiks yee kee tag me,
i will do la..
haha...
after back today,
jiu blog some again..
xD ~~~~~~~

-part 1 the end-

1st week of May

2009-05-08T02:16:00.001-07:00

back to 1st week of May ~
there some day,
what had i done?
recall back memory,

3rd May 2o09
i am glad, i feei greatful,
i been told by someone that i am a "du shu zai"
= = am i look the same?
my botak head mia pasal T.T..
haha.... i cook spaghetti for my dinner ~
i cook for 38 fei o..
haha.. hope she like it ~
in the same time, rush assignment,
but it's not mine = =... zzz! haha..
a helpful hand for u, no need curse that leader liao la!
finally her report is done, it's almost morning,
so.. sweet dream after that ~~

"Smile, after 2 month of bold head"

5th May 2009
don't eat maggie la,
so jio mcD, hha.. abnormal dinner time ~
that time almost 11 pm if not mistaken,
katherine wee hann faye and me..
i met my cousin wen,
she at mcD with her BF and friends,
revising final examination...
meanwhile, we sit mcD whole day,
4 of us chit chat, cham ~
never expect we will sit till morning,
lol... until ppl watch MU match end still we sit there,
we talk rubbish, gossip, many things la!
wah listen to my pal wee hann story.. wah!
but that's a promise to u to myself, i won't de la..
after McD, second round,
lao di fang dim sum pula = =..
haha, i know i stupid la, no need keep remind xD~
aiks i don have katherine picture ~
and thanks wee hann kor kor!!!!

"McD ss-ing, unclear pic with faye and ghost(hann) xD"

6th May 2009,
sleep "EARLY" in the night,
suppose is morning liao xD
been ask a question that make me hesitate,
cuz i don know how to answer...
seriously, i care..
so ma stupid stuck there lo..
no choice.. stupid king is me..

7th May 2009,
ah, life still go on,
today i had new name,
3 8 jun = =, noob jun, bla bla bla,
haha... whatever u like to cal me la,
cause i dan chun xD!
sure reply you.. haha,
and chat with xue wen too,
lol i and faye and wen, 3 of us,
in a chat room chatting 38 things..
AT last, sleep with a last sms,
"really concern u"

"Dreaming, love myself, appreciate everything"

make it simple,
no need crap too much
thanks for cheer me up..
totally free of my mind !!
recovery finally comes to end,
u have touched me,
it's been a long time..
i don't have such feelings,
now i have it back again,
it feel so good, appreciate u.
ei u really 3 8 haha...
must change the sleeping time xD,
i know auntie always with u..
i know u are strong, but still,
lend u my shoulder when u need it..
because i with you too, smile faye ~

斐, 谢谢你！

2009-04-30T22:18:00.000-07:00

feel better now.. ahh..
finally i am done..
forget about it almost..
no point to be sorrow..
it's my life i should appreciate..
can let it go away le..

few days ago,
2 days ago,
48 hours ago,
2,880 minutes ago,
172,800 seconds ago,
sharing with faye,
she accompany me whole day lo,
just because she knew,
i sad lo, haha,
wah chat until 6.45 am,
siao, well,

really appreciate got such a good friend,
we share a lot of things,
be my listener,
she told me, should be myself,
yea it is true,
what for wearing a mask?
and yet if wanna cry can borrow her shoulder,
wakaka, sure very comfortable,
got fat mia pasal xD,

she let me know it's not too late,
i should appreciate, everything,
i must find back what i had lost,
especially the person i care,
"wen, sorry for everything, cousin sayang you"

wanna send faye a words,
sincerely,
"thanks for the time, u comfort me a lot"
faye, thank you ~~~~~

Life miserable?

2009-04-28T07:52:00.000-07:00

life miserable?
no no.. where got? but..
these is what i found,
discovery on me..

shit, i apologize too much,
just like "Wesley Gibson",
from the movie"Wanted"
a bit a bit sorry, sorry infinity
when only it is the end of such bad habit?

i didn't achieve my motto,
"Love Yourself Always"
failure i am..
because i hate myself..
hate myself on many many things!
wasn't loving myself.. at all...

i hurt people, many many people b4..
go fuck myself.. that's what i can say..
i believe in karma..
so i deserve not to be happy..
get hurt is the best and that's what i want!

i will never improved, anymore..
it's the limit i had reached..
i will never impress anyone, anymore..
it's good impression had gone far far away

"Good in nothing, Bad in everything"

all are simple,
in conclusion..
i had destroy myself!

first time mention F***

at the blog, but

gAry smile :)

阿桑

2009-04-27T12:01:00.000-07:00

阿桑

she already passed away.
6th April 2009
not long ago..
due to breast cancer

from the first time i heard about it,
my heart feel so sad,
natural emotion..

sometimes...
so miss her,
listen to 叶子 this song..
feel so sorrow..
wish she still here..
along with us.. all the time~~~~~

look out~

2009-04-26T14:31:00.000-07:00

my god,
my blog..
when look on it,
it make me feel pain,
should walk further,
go in front..
never look into pass...

look out!
dangerous~~!
changed changeD ChangeD!

buzz! buzz!

2009-04-26T13:00:00.000-07:00

buzz! buzz!
hi everyone,
everybody..
wakaka..
let's had a party?
haha

all friends who concern about me,
thx for everything~
i appreciate anything,
regret nothing,
sad of something,
but will forget that thing..
that's the thing
that i am telling!

i am FINE la~~ lol..
wakkaa!!
small matter,
life still go on right?
haiz.. what to do ~~

try to jump sea, i can swim
try to swallow pils, it effect too slow, suffering,
try to eat poison, taste bad for sure,
try to jump from my apartment, sure die till very ugly
so
let it be..
let it go..
let it away..
let it done! haha!

ahh~
today been to hutan,
test game,
tired like shit..
unfortunately i wasn't finish till the end,
half half gone jor,
do head villager half,
leave jor due to KL friends visit..
sorry to my event committee,
sorry to
wen, amber, johnken, tingyii, rou, rongchun, ciao wei, hongchun/jun, wayning, & WC!
sigh... don't angry neh!

thx thx Miki,ming qi..
aiya dunno spell la..
for bear the responsibility of my position in sudden..
wakakaka!!!!

regeneration of life

2009-04-25T13:25:00.000-07:00

let's make it simple,
let's have it right,
let's have fun,
let's blog,
let's be optimistic,
let's rest,
let's play,
let's change,
let's smile,
let's enjoy,
let's start my journey,
let's settle my problem,
let's counter my fear,
let's forget everything,
let's relax,
let's have a nice day,
let's club@party,
let's drunk in party,

let's do it!

fill in emptiness ~~~~~~~~~

2009-04-25T13:10:00.001-07:00

gAry had an :

"empty brainstorming

empty mindset

empty soul

empty lifestyle

empty appetide

empty hobby

empty love

empty plan

empty future

empty strength

empty goodness

empty motivation

empty power

empty patient"

but
heart?
it's not empty
a space forever is 4 you...
katherine ~~~~~~~~~~

u are someone,
lead me growth ~~~~~
forever i wouldn't changed if is not you...
this is the reason,
made u someone special to me,
forever i will remember...
you...

sincerely, lovingly,

gAry yeiK ---------------> smiLe :)

sad ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-04-25T03:09:00.001-07:00

Sad
cry
moody

what to do?
suicide?
go die?
how to die?
jump sea?
jump from ixora apartment?
or jump river?

lol...
sounds funny,
but it is hurt for me to say it out..
because..

sad ~~~~~~~~~~~~~
but finally, i know the truth !
thanks for loving me before..
good bye...

single available :)
sincerely,
gAry.. happy boy...

tHe"Tag"

2009-04-13T07:39:00.000-07:00

Tagged by qiiqi .

The person who tagged you .
Yee Kee a.k.a qiiqi .

Your relationship with him/her is .
We R couple, She is mY dear, bao bei, lover, wife, partner . ( what else?! xD )

Your 5 impressions of him/her .
"Sweet & lovely" till ants will visit sometimes, she "forgetful" lah, super "blur" which always tortoise response when tell her about something especially things she dun understand xD , do things "without consideration of other factors" if that's what she want to do that time .

The most memorable thing he/she had done for you .
The first time she kisses Me . ( Zz! what a sudden she kiss me, lol but that's our first kiss )

If he/she became your lover, you will .
I will tell her, " i love you, and more importantly, i will believe in you "

If he/she became your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be .
Appreciate everything which is worthy, especially when the time, the moment we are able to touch each other .

If he/she became your enermy, you will .
i never dare to think about it, do not hope such things happen because i faced it before, it hurts.. a lot ~

If he/she became your enermy, the reason will be .
because i am stupid . or else it won't happened .

The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now .
her desire thing to get from me is the thing i desire to do, for her .

Your overall impression of him/her is .
She really love me but sometimes feel so hard to express it or get along with me .

How you think the people around you will feel about you ?
i am emotional, but friendly when i am not in emo mood .

The characters you love of yourself are .
I always think further, see further than others do .

On the contrary, the characters that you hate about yourself .
Emotional & temper ( it is a 03 03 born child nature, and is the only factor that will sink my life into darkness )

The most ideal person that you want to be is .
A person with a good anger management . ( since it was my nature, be the master of it instead it master me! )

For people who cares and loves you , say something to them .
thanks for staying with me when i need someone, especially "you, my love" , i will be strong !

Pass this test to 10 person whom you wish to know how they feel about you ( wish to know bout yee kee, but she tagged me )

1.Aun Khee
2.Hui Leng
3.Joan
4.Yeong Ling
5.Xiao Fei
6.Xue Wen
7.Hui Ping
8.Jun Zhe
9.Chai Hui
10.Yuen Shun

Who is no.6 ? ( Xue Wen )
My family, my lovely cousin who i concern .

Is no. 9 a male or female ? ( Chai Hui )
she is a girl, woman, young ladies, future will auntie xD

If no. 7 and no. 10 together , is that a good thing ? ( Hui Ping + Yuen Shun)
wow! more than good, is the best match in the world =p

What is no. 2 studying about? (Hui Leng)
Mass Communication if not mistaken .

When is the last time u had a chat with no. 3 ? (Joan)
couple days ago , keep asking me to buy ticket T.T ! no money a ~!

How about no. 7 ? (Hui Ping)
also couple days ago , FFK me . .

Is no. 4 single ? (Yeong Ling)
nop.. she ain't available.. sorry for guy.. ^^

What is the surname of no.5 ? (Xiao Fei)
miss Chang.. Fanny Chang.. nice name! wakaka!

What is the hobby of no. 10 ? (Yuen Shun)
What else? See girls la obviously .

Does no. 5 and no. 9 get along well ? (Xiao Fei & Samantha)
i don't think that they knew each other .

Where is no. 2 studying at ? (Hui Leng)
TARC

Talk something casually about no. 1 (Aun Khee)
LOL... aishi aishi, milku, seriously nothing ~ !

Have you tried developing feelings for no. 3 ? ( Joan )
Crazy . Ben dan joan is my friend , never cross the line before at all xD !

Where does no. 9 live at ? (Chai Hui)
somewhere Negeri 9 .

What colour does no. 4 like? ( Yeong Ling )
I dunno the exact answer, huhu failed for test T.T !

Are no. 5 and no. 1 best friends? (Aun Khee & Xiao Fei)
wakaka, can't imagine if both of them know each other.. but the answer is NO!

Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world? ( Hui Ping )
WOW! goodquestion, bingo.. she is sexy! especially when she with her WWE champion belt, Gold colour de xD!

What is no. 6 doing now? ( Xue Wen )
it's 2.40am, she is sleeping le, Sweet Dreams!

After 1 Month

2009-04-03T09:58:00.000-07:00

"After 1 month, current me!"

Hair Growth so fast, after 1 month of my bold head..
it's ok, i am waiting my hair to be jungle!
well, today, it was just a simple post..

i feel so busy now a days,
i got assignment to rush,
midterm seeking me,
event of my society currently so so busy,
i had funding to do next week..
wow?! seems like god treat me as robot? or a test?
for me?
well.. nothing can fall me.. wahaha,
i am still always that relaxing by the way,
even though so many things heading to me!
because if i don't be strong, how am i going to success?
so.. gambatea ~
of course.. people around me.. especially my friends,
exam just like me, good luck guys~!

"dear don't work till forget to take care ok? happy working!"

Taggy ~

2009-03-24T10:31:00.000-07:00

it was the first time i had been tag by a person~ lol..
but if i didn't post this,
i will get killed by her neh! xD... because she so fierce,
scolding at me saying that i didn't do the tag.. haha
since she tag me, so i can't tag her back luu,
cuz it's silly to tag it back to the person who tag u~~

Tagged by yEe keE ,

Tag 10 human :
1. Aun Khee
2. Gracie Chew
3. Xiao Fei
4. Jance
5. Yoong Wei
6. Hui Leng
7. Daisy
8. Yee Hoong
9. Hui Ping
10. Yuen Shun

Why you tagged him/her as number 1?
: because she is the 1st person appear in my mind when i were thinking of the list, milku, faster fly back la!!

Do you met number 2 before ?
: of course met her before la, mad fella summore, wakaka ^^

What will you talk when you meet number 3 ?
: NBQS - Ni Bu Qu Si.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ! lol.. she taught me 1

What is the relationship of number 4 & 5 ?
: STRANGER la!

What is number 6 favourite singer ?
: TVXQ once before, now!? mayb Jay Chou guaa... mostly Korean..

What is number 7 favourite Movie ?
: Twilight

Do you talk with number 8 ?
: GOT GOT GOT! and we always talk cock ( means rubbish ).. lol.. crapping champion!

How does number 9 look like ?
: Face round, small eyes, curly hair which like xiao za bo, big ears, got nose, with a kao pe mouth! she's cute!!!!!

Who is number 10's lover ?
: Miss "C" ... "C" xiao jie ... wan further information? ask him la...

Which numbers are couples?
: 9 and 10 i think.. because she at cyber studies always mention him to me.. then they keep telling me about each other to me... but i know la, can see she likes him very much, wakaka! so i take a guess lol... i guess only.. facts or not.. haha.. only they know!

Backwards to my 21st

2009-03-16T01:44:00.000-07:00

"gAry at 28th February, 21st early celebration with friends"

"Friends that With Me, Small Gang, but Meaningful"

"All Girls"

"All Guys"

"When the Candle shine into the dark"

"21st First Cake"

"My precious Gift From my Best Best Friends"

"This is the Gift from Them, i liked it ^^"

"Thanks my Dear for willing to travel so far to here, luv u"

"My Cake at 3rd of March, Specially from my 2 housemate, Kido & Mantou"

"3rd of March, Hair! Around 5pm"

"3rd of March, Bold Head! Around 6pm - a new begining"

"The Current me, so old already at 16th March"

(to be continue)

(continue back)

make it short, specially from me..

thanks to all my friend who had wish me,

i feel guilty because some of u who wish me,

i don't even remember u guys de birthday..

thanks for the sms u guys sent to me, and the called u guys had made!

thanks to my ex classmate pm 11 friends,

i feel touched because some of u travel far from kl to here,

i don't even know how to show i am so happy and appreciate the celebrations,

thanks for the moment u guys gave me... of course, the gift which is the watches! wonderful 21st ya!

thanks to my SAAS events committee,

i feel surprise because some of u telling me that the day were been to funding,

i don't even know actually u guys plan a birthday party to me..

thanks for the KFC as my surprise dinner during that night.. thanks you!

thanks to my B08-03 Housemate - kido and mantou,

i feel extraordinary happy because it was 3rd of march and yet i still receive a cake!

i don't even know how to tell u 2 how meaningful the small little celebration to me

thanks for the little tiny blue berry cake which it make me feel that my 21st wasn't alone!

thanks to my dear Yee Kee,

i feel sad because the gift u had delivered wasn't reach to me..

i don't even know how to find it back, but i want it back!

thanks for the time, for the sacrifice, for the love u gave me.. I LOVE YOU!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Regards by gAry yeiK

Today (part 2)

2009-03-10T02:20:00.000-07:00

what a bad day!
bad day it is!

today wasn't a good day for me,
i wasn't having a good day today,

why!?
why?!

i don't know..
don't know i am..

exam will be held by tomorrow,
tomorrow will have an exam,

no mood want to study?
want to study but no mood?

what's the solution?
solution to solve?

no!? is ok!
no?! ok it is!

going to die..
death awaits me..

kakakawa!
wakakaka!

8th March 2009 & Today

2009-03-09T21:50:00.000-07:00

"The Prizes 7th Place of Jogathon, and Medical Checkup Receipt"

Ahh... during 8th of march 2009...
it's morning that day..
i woke up at 6.40 am,
rushing to toilet..
brush my teeth,
drink a cup of water..
wear my sport shoes..
heading to my campus.. guess what?
had a little jogathon competiton~~

it was a charity jogathon..
and i joined it...

Reach campus,
haha.. there was a team of the event sponsor,

gather there,

they were doing business related health care de,

so they offer medical checkup for us,

with cost 1 ringgit as donation.. ^^

result come out.. i list out :

Weight - 67.3 kg : [normal of Body mas Index of height 171 - 173 cm = 65kg to 68kg ]
Body Fat - 16.3 % : [normal for male = 14% to 20% ]
Total Body Water - 61.3% :[ normal for male = 50% to 65% ]
Visceral Fat - 6 :[ healty range = 1 - 7 (lol i have to control my fat liao xD) ]
Muscle Mas - 53.4 : [standard ]
Physique Rating - 5 :[ number 5 = standard ]
Bone Mas - 2.9 kg :[ for male less than 65kg, normal bone mas = 2.66kg,
for male 65kg to 95kg, normal bone mas = 3.29kg ]

well...
it was not bad?
participator were around 200 +,
haha..... run total 10 KM ,
crazy.. erm,
well at least i do have friends acc me run,
that's why not that boring...
it's been so long i didn't jog already,
so long didn't exercise already,
but this competition means a lot to me,
although it was just simple and for fun only,

it reminds me of those day when i was young,
when i was in secondary,
represent my school for long jump, triple jump, run,
when the day i suffer in training..
i miss those days..
it make me feel sweet to feel the feeling of competition...
i love it so much.. so so much...
unfortunately i wasn't good enough,
to be the international level.. LOL..
think too much :p...

To my respective teacher of secondary school,
Mr.Morgan
"i nevr forget what you had taught me before,
thanks a lot mr morgan,
i was once ur most loved students...
i shall never forget what u had taught me...
i still remember u treat me a meal during lunch time
lol, really really never forget how delicious it was"

the competition ends,
i am 7th place in the competition..
ahaha, i am happy,
because it let me feel the feeling of fighting,
run non stop..
at least i finish my race!

beside that, meanwhile,
i still haven't post my birthday events..
3th of march, so far away omg,
so sad.. i always late post those things suppose to posted,
i want to get my photo from samantha,
as soon as possible~~
if not my dear might disappointed...

2 My Dear :p
"dear, i haven't post so long, forgive me
and yesterday, forgive me also alright?
i let u cry of me, i am sorry..
i know i wasn't the best.. it's ok!
but i.. really.. love you..

my lovely dear, about today,
don't give up.. just bukit,
next time just pijak minyak banyak banyak!
haha, so i awaits ur ride"

"My Desktop Wallpaper, I Love You"

countdown in 2 days

2009-02-24T23:52:00.000-08:00

counting about what!? haha...
it's about my best gang of friends...

they are coming to this town,
coming to hit the little tiny town..
small bukit beruang of melaka,
is going to blow..
blow away by them.. lol!
got that serious meh?
i was just kidding la lol...
but... i feel that it should be quite a big impact,
becuz this group of friends of mine,
was the most "kao pe" "pattern" "bising" "3 8" friends i ever met,
especially hui ping a.k.a kao pe ping,
and loh fu cai a.k.a KFC the pattern king...
see the nick name u guys know already la!
earth quake also might happen if she "fa hui"^^

hoho.. i await them..
but pity me, because i being force to be their maid,
going to cook dinner for them.. or else i will be sentence to death!
noo~~~~~ i haven't married... T.T
and we will goign to have fun!
is my 21st birthday celebration... dunno what will i face?
huhu, sure i get shoot or played till very serious~~
definitely i will go in hospital.. poor little gary!

besides,
my dear qiqi is coming!
oh yes... she is coming for my birthday celebration too!
i am so happy because at the begining,
she cannot make it to here,
becuz her mum not allow her luu,
at last i convince auntie joanne with my sweet reasonable sms, (hoho i pro ^^)
haha...then she able to travel luu..
and both of us were happy cuz we hardly meet with each other again!
hopefully the coming day is a greatest day in my life...
see you guys soon!!

"dear i can't wait u to come here!

these few days no concentration,

just awaits ur arrive only..

buy chocolate and lolipop wait u liao!"

Morning :)

2009-02-20T15:46:00.000-08:00

erm,
it's been so early today,
but i had to wake up at this hour..
no choice..
because i got camp need to attend..

so
good morning to everyone,
i chat with her whole night last night,
consider not sleeping xD,
so hope that i will enjoy in the camp
may it wasn't boring at all!
and i will become dark pig luu T.T!!

huhu,
during camp,
is hard for me to contact her...
haiz, i am sure i will miss her!

message for her,

my dear,

good morning.. have a good sleep ok?

u didn't sleep whole night,

dear, i didn't tell u i got camp today,

it is because that u will no need worry to talk with me last night,

and have a good chat lu...

just don't hope to ruined our good conversation last night lu xD..

and i am urs, remember oo :p

so u can get anything u want from me..

so sunday i will back again, dear if i no reply,

must be in activities luu~~

take care ya! muakz.....

love you!

Our 1st Valentine

2009-02-19T21:52:00.000-08:00

omg it's been far far away..
14th february from now,
but is ok..
it's not too late for me to post this..
i was so late.. sigh!
(to be continue)

(continue back)

"First Chapter - 13th February"

travel from melaka To KL,

woot, seriously i was nervous,

because finally we have chance to meet each other once again,

i never feel bored,

because on the way to KL.. she just like riding with me,

accompany all the time~~

reached pudu raya,

thought of she still on the way..

decided to sms inform her..

who knows she in front of me..

aiks! haha.. seriously dear, i am so happy,

that already can see u that time...

but i dunno how to express myself that time..

huhu... then, give u a warmest hug lu~~

so so so so, warm.. miss you..

walk around,

first time hold each other hands,

that feeling make me feel pressure..

walking for lunch, have ice together,

i still remember the flavor o,

u having yam, i having mango~~

but there sum interesting in front of us,

the prostitution activities is just in front of us,

we still watching 1 prostitute bring along a customer to the motel,

haha, there still an uncle having lunch in other table,

his head turn left right(haiz) when he saw the customer walk with the chick!

aiks... what a crazy world it is...

after lunch,

we been to TS walk around again oo...

then jiu back home le,

at night.. been to pasar malam!

wah, delicious fish chop~~

we hold our hands, whenever we go..

nothing will seperate us...

"Second Chapter - 14th February"

we are so simple,

this is who we are,

i am gAry,

she is Yee Kee,

we loved each other,

and she is my dear,

i love her..

and she love me too...

"her smile, so sweet :p"

Our journey started at 11am,

go for chicken rice as breakfast nor lunch xD..

so simple, then ride a taxi,

woot it cost us rm12, but nvm!

talkactive taxi driver were sharing his life with us,

and we just listened,

while he asking this place and that place,

watever.. i don't know where he means but still i say "oh, ya, hanoh"

lol.. my dear laugh at me~~~~~~

"our distance were around 200km away, but it still holding invisibility"

reached timesquare, first things we did,

delivery alan's girlfriend, yeemin xD..

aiks eventually i was the "tang jian pai" for her to go out that day..

but she didn't thanks me in msn PM,

huhu.. T.T, i very mind xD!!

wow, alan say i leng zai.. lol,

should i say i am happy? actually just because i wear smart that day,

otherwise i was just ordinary la!

at last, alan no more jealousy towards me and yee min lu..

then of course, been walking around with my dear~

"Love Is A Feeling About You That I Can't Describe" - by my dear"

Our simple valentine begin heres

we walk around Sungai Wang..

haha, so many ppl..

my dear looking at me.. haha

so worry that i will look at other leng lui xD!

haha.. ben dan,

since sungai wang is so pack,

we decided to go Pavillion lu..

go for cinema buy ticket..

for our movie section,

and it's our first time to have movie together ^^..

we walk around,

tired, and we rest!

sit just right beside Apple Authorize Retailer,

we hug each other,

talk with each other..

holding hands,

having photos,

kiss each other,

and just like,

the world only just me and u..

so sweet!

"Our First Movie Together - the curios case of Benjamin Button"

Benjamin Button was great,

a story about, someone from old turn to young..

life span upside down.. it was really great movie!

she was shivering, me too xD!

but i had her to warm me up..

dear, thank you.. it make me feel so warm..

you do comfort me a lot..

during movie section,

she ask me some question,

and i answered,

but it touch my feeling deeply..

"no matter what happened, i will still love u my dear.."

yee kee,

it make me so happy to have u in my life!

we hug each other.. and i hope the time wil stop,

forever.. dear thank you so much..

"Our Bus Ticket On the way Home"

our dinner were so simple,

although is valentine.. yup i know..

roses were all around in the street,

chocolate were sold in many stall as well,

definitely meal for couple during valentine

suppose to have something luxury?

dear, u let me know u don't eat spice,

just in a normal food stall..

cost us not more than 20 bucks..

she don't mind, me either!

but u know, the most important moment is,

dinner, u are with me.. i with u,

that's nothing to be compare if in a luxury

expensive meal but without a happy moment!?

thank you for everything..

"huhu.. dear u so tired too xD"

at last, LRT station back home,

meet back yee min.. then go back lu...

haha! dear,

U are so cute that u like to sit bus de..

nvm we will go for bus again ok?

that's the end of our valentine of 2009 luu~~

not yet end,

at night.. haha.. both were at home..

we chit chat.. with ah muii as well..

understand even more with each other..

and dear, i am happy could spent time with u oo..

it is very sweet moment we have...

that's it! the end~~~

"Third Chapter - 15th of February"

final day that we were together

"in the Morning, my dear Shine brightly"

oh what we did? yea...

been awake by my dear lu...

"wei, zhu! xing liao xing liao" from my dear..

lol.... haha, i had an important mission!

that's go the market, buy some fresh goods,

back and cook lunch for my dear and ah mui and mimi..

and we have our breakfast in the market lu..

wow i never had someone with me before when i,

do shopping with the fresh goods...

thanks again my dear.. xD

"you are my everything, thx ah muii help us captured!"

back home,

cook lunch, we enjoying!

haha.. she just look at me.. beside me..

we both so huai dan, suddenly kissing each other... lol..

and we have a great lunch together,

with her mimi, ah muii.. herself and me!

unfortunately my soup failed because i put too less sugar..

sorry ya! i will ganti it next time~~~~~~

"YeeKee, I LOVE YOU"

Qi.. Wo Ai Ni....

Zhen De Ai Ni!

"Our Love is Incomplete if Without Another"

at last, is the time.. we seperate again,

i had to back melaka for my class...

wow so hard to go travel back,

because traffic jams, so i had nochoice need to run,

run to bus station for bus due to timeless...

luckily i made it! 3 minutes before the bus depart..

haiz...........................

life still had to go on.. even i hope to stay with her..

beside her everyday...

my dear... i go back le.. u must take care..

i feel so heartpain.. when the time u bring the clothes to me,

my bus already departed...

last chance to meet u had gone.. but is alright!

i will back again.. k? yee kee, u must take care!

u must !!!!!!!!.... u must take care!

the ends of my meet with her...

"My Beloved Yee Kee"

you wasn't perfect,
you wasn't as pretty as a paint,
you wasn't the best...
but yee kee.. me too..
i am just like you...
dear, no matter what..
i stay with u...
i will face with u,
i will give u courage,
i wil try my best!
i will keep my promise... not to kap lui xD
lastly..
LET THE WORLD know..
"I will always Love You"
smile always :)
u my everything...

Your Truely Lovingly,
gAry the Lan Fan Zhu :)

Sweet ~~~~

2009-02-08T07:58:00.000-08:00

Where Should I Begin?

hmm...

let's get started with any part as long as it is from you..

it's begin during chinese new year huh?

our first meet, haha..

i treat u milo..

it's worth for it..

getting knowing you is a part of my colorful life!

when you leaving,

is impossible for me asking you to stay.. lol,

i was actually stun there because,

you say wanna give me a hug before u go,
and i really not dreaming that u really give me a warm hug..

although it's been just awhile,

i will miss it..

not long later..

daily quest, monday to friday..

haha, if still not clear.. ask again :p

i still remember,

when u discover my blog,

u send me a sms "OMG!! your blog!!"

haha, i was imagine how is ur face look like..

must be very cute right?

u made me a surprise,

how touched to see this post,

garythelanfanzhu,

i don't mind u dunno how to write beautiful words,

but i do mind if 1 day,

u no more say words to me...

a changed of me which is unexpected..

i seldom blogging de, i less go for blog too.. but..

ur blog is just like a daily things i will been there,

and is not just once!

day time,

night time,

after wake,

before sleep,

after lunch,

before dinner :)

listen to the song, fan nau fan nau xD..

and it's not boring ~~

why so ben dan o..

i told u that i will wake up at 7.30,

i knew definitely u will wake up to wake me de,

regret i told u le la...

should let u rest more ^^..

ur sacrifices,

actually..i know it and,

i appreciate eveything u had done for me,

ur concern, ur caring..

anything...

at last,

i wish u to know,

i love the goodnight wishes from u to me!

wish that i am so creative like u too but i am not...

i am glad that have u right beside me,

always.. you make me know i am not alone..

i don't want u cry,

want u be strong..

i am not right with u that time.. i apologise,

but is not sorry..

cuz, this is our promise :)

and, i love the way u call me, my dear...
miss you

u are welcome that i staying beside u when u need someone,

u are welcome that i had called you,

u are welcome that i had ben ben repeat same thing in english for u,

u are welcome that i had let u feel hang fuk got people sek,

u are welcome that i had asking ur opinion,

and

i didn't fly...

just i feel that you are so,

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Sweet

Miss You 2 alwAys :p

2009-02-05T10:35:00.000-08:00

Introducing my 2 lovely cousin - Yee Kee, Yee Min..

yaya, i am so naughty.. why?
because non of the picture is gained by myself,

my phone spoiled already huhu T.T , what to do?

so no choice lo, the only ways is COPY AND PASTE, XD!

weii weii min and qi, won't angry with me la hor?

haha... 2 of u, take care a! miss you 2 always~~

WANTED target series number 0001 - Yee Min

**Biography**

Name - Yee Min a.k.a【S_R】寶貝 YukI · 冰琪琳公主

Gender - Female

D.O.B. - 2.11.1994

Horoscope - Scorpio

Status - Currently very Sorry 4 Guys, Not available! :P

Information - hoho she's cute, energetic, young, friendly, pretty :p, cool, lovely, talkactive, playfull, love sing K, zi lian picture taking :P, listen to music, ice-creams, lolipop, & shopping(lol in other hands, means she's spendthrift)..

~Words From me to yEe Min~

ei ei, yee min a,

don't crazy over love too much until neglected ur studies XD..

wow u also got blog? never think of give me la? haha..

min, got miss me mah? remember take care le,

friendster Shout out so big for u,

i thought touched you jor, but why u still sick har?

haiz.. don't walk under the rain la..

aiks! ppl worry u de know ma?

min a, when only bring me to meet fantasy alan a?

wah beh tahan u, lao gong lao gong,

wah~~ now adays young generation geng le!

last time during my time a, haha,

in relationship also no ppl around called each other that way,

so sweet ya? hha... be happy always ya!

if something happen want me chu tou le? call me.. XD!

haha... ei ei, soon u will be home alone liao lo,

haha, jie jie goign out station jor..

but i believe u are someone independant de.. so don't be lazy :P!..

during this chinese new year, really happy to see u ya,

the breakfast how was that? delicious le? hehe.. eat with me.. sure!

hope we have a day with breakfast together once again!

haha, if u got anything just find me la!

i will be there for you de..

cuz i am gary ya~~~~!

WANTED target series number0002 - Yee Kee

**Biography**

Name - Yee Kee a.k.a 〖ツ" qiiqi ×】

Gender - of course is Female

D.O.B - 10.10.1991

Horoscope - She is Proud to be A Libran (Libra)

Status - It's ComplicateD :P...

Information - Lovely, Diligent, Friendly, Talkactive, caring :), own Style, own principle, brave and got gut and courage, optimist,blur blur! Love lolipop, fan's of jay chou, love chocolate, teddy bears, blogging, music, sleeping, dislike pink colour & ppl hug her from back xD! and she is a SWEET young lady...

~worDs of gAry, juSt for yOu Yee Kee~

how are you my dear? everythings fine?

is it great to get to know me le? haha...

i bet you did.. becuz i so cute right? wakaka!

well well, chinese new year, it's the first time we met lo,

haha, last time just listen about u from yee min only,

sorry getting to know u late a bit than ah min,

no choice what, that time u SPM when ah nai yii(mimi)

with ah muii go weddings celebration,

that's why get to know for late a bit lo,

but are u happy right now?

haha.. must smile always ya,

ah muii ever told me, u will miss papa sometimes,

i try to feel how u feel, and i know it is sad,

but i want you to know, pass will never let u down,

becuz u turn ppl around u become happy, example, me!

so u are deserve to be happy, smile!

u always that sweet,

ur night wishes to me were the best and special of all,

which i receive in my life..

haha, i very fair de.. ah muii and you also i treat very well 1..

so awaits the day i been your house to be ur maid ya!? XD..

this is our promise...

so, what else? oh ya, i am fine by the way..

about last night i had sms told u why i was down suddenly?

it just a small partion in my colorful life,

i am even happier right now..

cuz got u cheer me up what? lol!

so.. daily quest, friday i no class ya!

sms inform, blog inform too!

your job interview, hope you succeed getting the job!

at last, ihadlearnttowritelikeyou XD, thx for everything,

the roses, is for you, just for you :)

so got touched by my essay? haha.. cheers yee kee!

and i will remember..

"sorry" is not allowed except in special cases!

haha... take care ah qi!!

~OuR MemORieS :P~

i Wil never forget both of you
if i forget, call me babi ok? lol...
yee min, i will play the guitar and u be the vocal ok?
haha, wanna hear you sing again
yee kee, i learning jay's chou song, just for you..
qing tian, not just qing tian, haha... cuz i knew u like jay..
miss you 2 always..

sincerely ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ cousin gAry yEik :)

明天会更好！

2009-01-25T04:20:00.000-08:00

笑一笑
明天会更好

这天，
农历十二月三十，
团团圆圆吃一顿晚饭。。
明天就是~
新的一年
新的一天
新的一秒钟
人生是要笑口常开的度过。。
祝大家平平安安。。
家人身体健康，
朋友就愿您拥有美好的一年！！

今天，
不是人生中的最后一天，
我还是站在这世界里某个角落，
心跳还是努力的向前着。。
呼吸着。。
眼睛睁开向前看着。。
周围的声音重复的出现在我的耳朵旁~~
特别是欢笑，
但是。。

脑海里享受不到喜乐，
我，
想着她，思念着她。。
总是觉得，
我不配，
好辛苦。。
我失去了自信，信心。。勇气。。
连上进心也快失去了。。
选择不开口，
只是害怕面对连朋友都不是的那一天，
不想面对尴尬的一面，
但是我不想后悔，怎么办才好？
我要求不高。。
只希望，
您会笑的过着，
哭了，
记得留下会笑的眼泪。。
让我留在您的左右作作您的好朋友。。好陪伴

所谓，朋友是一生一世的:)

nOt sleeping Last Night..

2009-01-20T22:10:00.000-08:00

lol,
in the middle of the night,
midnight..
been to a place which near the fish and water but not salt water,
got fish i think ^^ cuz ppl fishing there
that's the river side lo
......
really crap too much,
haha...
nothing la..
just feel boring now a days...
dunno what to do...
so we both also no road(no road - sien, boring)
yesterday go out at night..
midnight..
suddenly a friend of mine called me,
no more than 4 minutes 31 seconds,
go out le..
she drive,
i sit beside...
after we arrive... just sit beside the river watching the night,
and chat...
also
hearing those freak who also night cat listening to chinese new year song,
and around 3am, summore got this song - 张智成 - 凌晨3点钟,
wow the listener so match with the time,
so
we talk,
we laugh..
we do stupid things..
we eat,
we drink 100 plus...
every subject we also can talk..
music, joke, rumour, friend, family, food, rubbish, love, sex, future plan, movie, anythings..
lol, then back in the morning of 6am...
aiks, people sleep we stay awake.. really stupid.. haha
hardly can find a friend like this anymore..
haha...
appreciate u as my friends.. take care,
take care of what? kaki zai la..

2 my Friends :) 2008 Dec 31st

2008-12-31T07:57:00.000-08:00

to my Friends
i hope my friends,
smile always.. for those who fall, pls stand up,
becuz the world is so big and need u to stand up and walk around to descover how wonderful it is
just be cool

words from gAry : ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
my pattern friends PM 11 ex classmate ~~ who else? no need say, KFC Sam Kao pe Ping Loon noob Shun Johnson Baby zheng ling NONO!..
u guys stay pattern. .thx...
zheng ling ~~ i always scare you de!u know why? i tell u bah... u scold me before =.=
fu cai ~~ desperate for no 4? don't worry.. i save u bah.. nah 0124134183.. leng lui number ^^
johnson ~~ don't smoke.. it bad for ur health
wei loon ~~ i am sure u get 4.0 this semester.. no problem xD
kp ping ~~ dai yi ma visit u that time pls don't find me..
sam ~~ u very pretty jor.. wahlau... siao liao!
yuen shun ~~ zzzzzzz............. ...... no comment..
choon wei ~~ word for u.. stay happy
boon keong ~~ i appreciate u as my buddy...it's quite weird for me to say direct to you.. haha, but i do.. hope u saw this o!
"bro" who in taiwan, soo han ~~ u hao hao de live in taiwan la! mai forget to drink water
loi loi ~~ i am happy i can call u like this.. haha, thx for cheering me up sometimes~~
amber chen ~~ let's work SAAS together out!
mulvis ~~ Happy birthday to Mulvis, haha... thx for being my friend oo..
Ah bi ~~ take care!!! kor kor miss you...
Shi hui ~~ Jia you for your exam! i... haha.. i dunno what to say le.. stay leng lui!
zee chee ~~ take care and smile, i wish i could cook for u again.. .haha..
yuin han ~~ siao za bo =.=, bu yao wu liao la ni
ellyn ~~ u too, bu yao wu liao la ni
yee hoong ~~ mai down, wu wa this brother go back BS acc u, mian "she" eh, cuz i am a.k.a F**ker
kok yao ~~ mai join buddist temple until ki siao.. haha! less eat o!!
eng swee ~~ haha... kia go swimming again XD
sing chee ~~ still i am ur big fans... haaaaa
tian jing ~~ i am sure u will get ur first love soon, be confident to yourself in relationship! u are talent!
jun zhe ~~ u are not a tools, u are my friends, remember me~~
woan ching ~~ u give a ride during CNY 2008, wah.. impossible to forget u this friend, i do remember u steal something from me.. that's our friendship o~~ haha
hui leng ~~ in love jor pls don't forget ur studies
chin fang ~~ i miss ur mushroom head la wei!
hui rou (ng) ~~ u going to University study, gambatea
sey fun ~~ omg, u are a lovely ladies in UKM, doctor soon, haha.. i wish u all the best
grace chew ~~ u still the mad fella in my heart la.. this will never change! i go genting will find u again la! don't worry.. .haha... remember the mexico bun a!
xiao huan ~~ meet u in genting again ya xD
yoong wei ~~ UM is it happy? haha.. hope u remember me always!
hui ning ~~ ah ning a.. don't bully me liao la!
heng yee ~~ wei wei, i will go ipoh find u again ya! haha...
wai han ~~ wei wei, sungai siput friends, never forget u ya XD
milku ~~ wei aun khee... USA nice bo? u don't marry a white ppl come back.. i scare!
cyndy tey ~~ haha.. lets go for dinner ok?
bak kim ~~ once my brother.. the past tear we apart.. once scout.. forever scout..
sheng yao ~~ don't be gay liao pls~~
soon huat ~~ i miss u.. u are the one who sit with me during my secondary school.. let's sing together again ok?
my others friend ~~ didn't mention u guys doesn't mean forget u.. i remember u guys always! haha....
lastly, kathering hng ~~ u.. are someone special in my friends list.. take care

in memories of jun hao,
u and me, was just simple friend.. but i may not forget u..
i regret i didn't go back for the last meet,
i wish i could say.. hi and see you but not GOOD BYE!
live in peace!

31st Dec 2008 ~ ~ Finally

2008-12-31T07:06:00.001-08:00

good Bye 2008's gAry ~~

it's Been a year..

what had i done for so long?!

wasting time?!

haha
20th During this year

21st Soon T.T!

"the picture TOOK During 2008 31st December"

Finally ~ ~ it's Over...

and Tomorrow ~~ brand new day...

let's recall some memories,

which is inside my mind..

let's start with

~My Birthday~

erm... during my 20th.. haha,

i got my buddy to celebrate with me, early celebration,

i remember.. i been to Cyberjaya,

brother FLoong Fucai Yuen Shun and others serve me well..
go to NewWay KTV sing K, get a surprise birthday Cake from them..
erm.. thx..

Besides.. My event Committee, sin zhet them give me cake and wishes too..

thx you

~Trip to Muar~

as i mention before

post it too..

precious part is.. i get to know more friends.

and i get 1 god sister ^^

thx you yiing hui, han wee, lao su fen, cyndy the most!

cheng Xin kor kor thx you too...

~Cameron Trip~

a trip organize by SAAS event..

get to know each other very much..

by the way.. i am the emo kids always..

haha... but it's still fun as well..

i send straberry to my friends.. in fact is it's just a MMS..

haha... which with straberry..

becuz my friends like it.. haha

~Genting Trip~

finally PM 11 pattern group member get to gather together to a trip,

it's been mention so long wnana go there go here..

at last it happen..

but..

unfaithfully is..

Kao pe ping dai yi ma visit her.. wahlau..

cold freezing war with her lo...

sad nia..

lagi EMO haha... got joyce accompany..

thx hui xin for cheering me up~~~ :)

~Little gathering with PB friends~

hoho.. early in the morning woan ching fetch me been to jawi for breakfast..

gather in chin fang house..

got jun zhe got chin fang got woan ching got hui leng got xue wen and me..

6 people..

been to butterworth for bowling..

then autocity for dinner..

lol... fish market...

wow the dinner was great.. but of course..

our pocket cry as well T.T!! however...

we enjoy.. miss u guys~~

what else in my mind?

hmm... i dunno.. mayb no more?

i think so...

well,

there some wishes before the year end..

i hope my family stay healthy always,

i miss my grandma i hope to see them always..

i hope my god papa god mama god sister stay healthy too...

becuz they take care of me when i was just few months baby..

now i am growth,, i'll not forget who they are..

xue wen, my cousin, i hope i am the best cousin u ever had,if it happened before is more than enough

~wishes to myself~

stay healthy

less play games

sleep early

study hard

love yourself always

stay Leng zai XD

~~ The End ~~

Past and "Chee"rs..

2008-09-07T23:42:00.000-07:00

to a friend i wish to say sorry,
sorry i hurt you before..
perhaps last time it was hard for me to live in the day that is everyday..
Sad sad sad~~~
in hell~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
so sometimes just need attention from ppl,
but i really lost that time..
i actually knew that my words is hurting u,
i really know...
but still i purposely do it..
perhaps i been isolated that period..
sorry~~
i wish to maintain our friendship forever..
would it be too late?!
as i knew,
now u no more take me as the friend that u love in ur mind already~~

forgive me~

Money Not Enough 2

2008-09-07T23:34:00.000-07:00

the money tears me a lot..

jack neo you are a great singaporean,
who using movie to speak out the people's voices...

jack neo you are a great director,
who using movie to criticise those people who forgetting their own parents..

jack neo you are a great comedy creditor,
who using movie to make us laugh a lot! haha~~~~

jack neo you are a great producer,
who using movie to touched people's heart! thx you~~~

words to my MUM and DAD and my Family~~
i love you daddy mummy,
i swear to god..
future i won't be the son who forgetting u two..
in the future i promise i will take good care both of you..
because i love you two...
no matter how hard i will face in the future~~
in the decision making i won't sacrifice both of u..
and zheng and jie i will take good care of them...
chien too i respect~~ all my brothers..

my brothers,
my father,
my mother,
my family...
my parents..
my life!

Muar Trip 2008, 29th August - 1st September

2008-09-07T23:03:00.000-07:00

Hmm, i am too late to post this,
but,
wish to take it as memories,
i decided to post~~~

It was a wonderful trip set by my muar friends..
haha.... it's my pleasure to visit their home.. their family... their hometown.. and their friends,
well,
thx to Su Fen, Yiing Hui, Cindy, Han..
i am so lucky... cause i am the only guy with 4 girls as company,
and yet,
during this trip.. i was just like a king treated by them la!
my god... eat free stay free been here been that all FOC..
to be honest i am very shy for it le..
wish that 1 day you guys will come to my hometown,
for me to return the guilt in me.. haha...

cindy,
thx you for letting me to stay your house,
u had a lovely family,
man i am so envy and jealous,
when the first sight to see a sweet happy family like u..
first walk in,
see u hugging ur mama.. haha,
with ur brother sitting there playing pc, and ur cousin jasmine..
that cute young lady(erm, still little girl la)..
ur daddy and mummy treat me as their own kids,
first day already eat so much for my dinner...zz!
haha... so nice~~~~
thx you so much...
ur house guitar was great.. haha..
ur brother's guitar..lol,
but music is nice~~ hope that 1 day he will continue learning lo!

next day been to Tanjung of muar,
why no monkey de?!!! ZZZ!
i thought monkey a lot.. but i didn't see any 1 at all..
perhaps is in the morning.. all Monkey sleeping~
haha...
and visit ur Muar cinema..
haha, it is a great experience for me to visit the little cinema,
although yes it is old and small,
not as quality as GSC TGV MBO whatever other newly firm of cinema la..
porncorn 2 bucks, haha.. yes nevermind i enjoy it!
"WALL-E" is a great movie, PIXAL AND DISNEY's animation were awesome!
thx Wayning for introducing me... ~~~
haha... but it is great~~~
erm, small shopping complex is there, haha...
nvm, at least mcD is there o.. and a lot of ppl,
got Nike somemore, what else u wanna complaint o?!
Ma Que Sui Xiao, Wu Zhang Qi Quan... (PinYin suck! sorry if mistake)..
muar what also got le la.. haha!

what i eat,
hmm...
man it cause me fat for 3 KG..
knew it.. expected already~~~ everybody treating me eat,
go where also eat... there is no entertainment fun park in muar,
but what the precious part of Muar is the food there..
wow~~~ awesome!
that few days, i ate breakfast lunch teatime dinner supper... SIGH~~
no fat also hard lo~~

secondly, i would like to thx my brother..ChengXIN!
... this world really that small?
so co-incident?! i dunno what to say..
consider i really got faith to my this friend la...
haha...thx you brother too..
bringing me to MOLi... lol,
Muar's Moli really just like pasar~~~
Uncle Sam cafe enjoy Tomatoes juice with that bull eyes(Egg) haha..!
that taste so good right?!

the food i taste in Muar,
bak kut tea~
otak otak~
muar's fried koey teow + mee
asam Fish~
cindy's mummy cooking
su fen's mummy po piah
ice kacang
oyster egg (O-JIAN)!
curry laksa~
ASAM FISH - WOOT~~!

no w0nder i will heavy 3 kg in just few days..
ghaha~~~

before i end this,
i am not regret to visit muar,
i am not alone there... it's full with family love and care..
and i GAINED a god sister,
AH Bi, bro here.. will..
miss you lo~
love you MuakzZZZ~~~~~

I am Lost!

2008-08-25T01:34:00.000-07:00

haha,
so far so good...
feel that i am lost again..
no more direction to go..
how could it be?
why the life so suffer sometimes?
who really can show me the way...

sometimes,
i was not that perfect to know everything..
but i hope i can understand something i wish to know,
at least some clue for me..
but now,
there is no way for me to find out about it!
there is no chance for me to know more about it!
i am TOTALLY LOST!

i wish to know,
i wanted to know! i wanna know..
give me a chance....
cause this feeling is painful for me,
i really dunno what should i do..

i don't want people to say i am good..
but why i don't want this i really don't know~~
in my mind,
i will never is a good person..
i no worry to let others know about me,
i am not that kind who will hide the dark negative part and don't want let ppl know..
i just like to be myself..
to prove that i am sincere and wasn't got anything hide behind u..
don't want a two face people to be a friend with u..
i am GARY~~~
if my friend will appreciate me, i thank you so much,
if due to my weaknesses and sink the friendship,
so be it... it's ok i understand..
nobody is perfect.... but thx you for being my friend!

爱上一个人的7个预兆

2008-08-24T09:21:00.000-07:00

mayb this is the truth~~~~~

爱上一个人的7个预兆

1.当你正在忙时，却把手机开着，等着她/他的短信.. 你已经爱上她/他了
　　
2.如果你喜欢和她/他两个人单独漫步.. 你已经爱上她/他了　　

3.当你和她/他在一起时，你会假装不注意他，但是当她离/他开你的视线时，你会急着寻找她/ 他... 你已经爱上她了

4.当她/他受伤或生病时，你会很关心她，替她/他着急.. 你已经爱上他了　
　
5.当她/他和别人要好时，你会感到吃不知其味... 你已经爱上她了

6.当你看到她/他那甜美的笑时，你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑.. 你已经爱上她/他了 .....　　

7.当你看到这篇文章时，心里想到某个人

cite from http://home.ypwow.com/viewthread.php?tid=21150&extra=page%3D1

12.47PM CITS of Melaka Campus

2008-08-12T21:46:00.000-07:00

title with the time and the destination,
state that is the time is started create my post here...
nothing to say about,
was so sad suddenly again..
haha.... guess feel better after this~~

money money $$$,
tell me.. do u like money?
u love it? do u?
today.. the money issues cause me a little bit conflict occur between me with my friends,
seriously i hate this $ so much,
but i had no choice and yet had to survive with it...

money is actually the DEVIL to the human kind,
don't u think so???
yes i can't denied,
if we are rich with a lot of money,
we can do a lot of things with it..
because the reality world today need it to gain back a service or a goods..
but example..
money can buy a watch,
can't buy time..
and many more!
in my mind,
the most previous things that money can't do is..
money can't buy LOVE~~~

message to my friend..
"i wish you understand that it doesn't matter with the money,
and yet i was just..
sincere to do what i did...
because i care about you..."

no matter what,
as long as the person is the one i care, i love..
i do not hope that the stupid money..
will break our relation"ship" sink into the deep sea..
as so many cases happen before in this reality world~~~

argh!
man this feeling was sucks.. haha!

8th August 2008 "08 - 08 - 08"

2008-08-08T08:33:00.000-07:00

Just a dream,
i was 20th...
and yet the only day i will have in my life...

that's today...
my friend start the blog today,
so am i...
just a copy cat.. haha.....

what is the things that's is so special happen today?
hmm.. yes there is one,
i create a 'sms' by myself for the first time in my life..

since today was a special day..
i have to make a wish..
the wishes really hope to be come true..

i wish
"grandma papa mama gege didi & other family members, stay healthy all the time"
i wish
"my best buddy hoong will smile always, because he is my best friend and i have this blog is because of him"

lastly i wish
"i wish... the person i love will look behind to look at me... to realize how much i love her"~~

ｇＡｒｙ Ｊｕｎ＊俊

Advice from you

wish this isn't me =)

My Career ~

Unleash me!

9/02....

Negative Lesson

MCB

On Leave

DiSapPoinTed

My current life?

4/4/2011 = SEI SEI 2011

oh i finally got it ~ ace

Poor

I WANT a new phone !

Insomnia ~

堕落的日记 ～

Update!

Back to Melaka

love letter , he he !

soon Another Chapter in Life

22nd April 2010

初恋红豆冰, 赞！

Last Week of 21st

做不成男女朋友，做个特别的朋友

Last Drive before CNY

Update

Why don't understand!?

Fictional Case Study

Write with Peace

today is last day ~

Missing ~

StreSS!

F** Ixora Management

Tag by Faye

Horror Movie I Await it~

Sleepy

Update !!!

go backwards

Late Posted - exam week!

Holiday ~

Tag - From Charmaine

KL trip

tag by qiiqi

happies day ~

8th May - part 2

Goodbye to you

8th may 2009

1st week of May

斐, 谢谢你！

Life miserable?

阿桑

look out~

buzz! buzz!

regeneration of life

fill in emptiness ~~~~~~~~~

sad ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

tHe"Tag"

After 1 Month

Taggy ~

Backwards to my 21st

Today (part 2)

8th March 2009 & Today

countdown in 2 days

Morning :)

Our 1st Valentine

Sweet ~~~~

Miss You 2 alwAys :p

明天会更好！

nOt sleeping Last Night..

2 my Friends :) 2008 Dec 31st

31st Dec 2008 ~ ~ Finally

Past and "Chee"rs..

Money Not Enough 2

Muar Trip 2008, 29th August - 1st September

I am Lost!

爱上一个人的7个预兆

12.47PM CITS of Melaka Campus

8th August 2008 "08 - 08 - 08"

ｇＡｒｙ　Ｊｕｎ＊俊

堕落的日记～